homeless

Whenever your dad or sisters call you, my heart jumped. Well, again... today yr sis called you. Infront of Su, You said that your sister is coming over for 4 days next week. I got the hint. Now I must make plans for myself, shift back home & plans my stories all over again....You always said that I doesn't treat this place as my home. Well, how to treat this place as my home if I need to shift around like an unwanted rat. I know what I should do. I know where I stand.

Abt 10 years ago..in my first job. I clashed with my assistant manager on some disagreements in work. I hate the sight of him. He is an impossible, horrible guy. Everyone in my office knew that I hated him. And of coz, he doesn't like me either.
One day, my site manager came to me...He told me: you are still young & green. You still have 2 years contract with us. Why make yourself so unhappy?? No matter what, you must always remember "Where you Stand??" He is Asst manager. What would you gain in going against him??

Till today, these words still kept in my mind. Whenever im unhappy at work. Whenever I had disagreement with my bosses, I told myself...always REMEMBER where you stand.

The missing piece...

Had dinner with mum. Reached home at abt 9.30pm. You are not back yet. I had my shower & made myself a cup of Flower Tea. You came home at around 10pm. You made yourself a bowl of noodles. I asked if you want to watch dvd with me..you said NO.. you are not in the mood. Well, when will you have to mood to watch the stuffs I like?? I expected that answer..but somehow, I still feel upset. As usual you stay in the Hall watching TV, had yr mee & read newspaper. Me, in the room watch my TV & surf net.

After a while, I went out to give u a hug. Well, yah....you came into the room "still with a black face.." lay on the bed & well....expected you doze off. Sometimes, I felt that I'm so foolish.

Yes, that's our life. Do you feel bored? Yes I do. Something is missing..we are still together because of?? Love?? Because we are too used to each other... well, perhaps. Love is just like a puzzle. If there's a missing piece, that's it..... It will never be complete.

Sometimes stopping is the most important part of the journey...

Searching.....

Had a terrible day...

I'm really very happy that you are on leave today..but my happiness dies off right after our breakfast. You went in to the room and start working on yr PC...and u actually blame me for surfing in the hall instead of spending time surfing in the room with you.

So what if i'm in the room? Looking at you smashing the mouse & banging the desk...you think I dare to go near you?

Its hurts, when you said that you will not apply leave to accompany me in future anymore.

Yes, I know you tried to make me happy by bringing me to eat good food & bringing me for movie....but, do you know what really matters to me??

I really missed the days ..we used to spent time at home watching TV together, going for travel fair, Zoo..or anywhere...really spending time together WITHOUT the PC or laptop around.

Something is missing in our r/s...

You asked me what am I searching for..????

I'm searching for the missing piece....happiness...

忽冷忽熱的對待
眼看愛(就像牛奶)　在變酸　慢慢變壞
難道你不明白　有一些傷害　會看不出來

多謝關心

Thanks for your concern my dear friend.

No matter what, I still have to go thru it myself. No matter how much she care, how much she dotes on me.... I still have to stand up & walk on myself.

helpless

Had been feeling very down lately... very helpless...

Last friday, I was really very unhappy. At that moment I realised that I'm all alone & have no one to speak to.... Had a rather unhappy weekend. A stressful Saturday and a restless Sunday. I felt that my life is in a total mess.

Spoke to AH Fi this morning. At my tone of voice, she can feel that something is wrong with me. We had a good talk.

thanks for your time my great frd. Thank you.

Forever

I never believe in Forever Loving someone. Do you???