my time has come....

After 10 months of struggle....Now my time has come. To learn to leave behind what seems to be the best job and career of my life.

Everything is...falling into places now...after a week of shock...tears...disappointment and all kinds of anger....is coming to a point..of acceptance now...trying to accept the fact. The fact of losing my future and darkness right infront of me. This is really not easy. Thanks of everything my dear friends. I know I can make it.

PS : Thanks for being with me...tami

24 May 2006

24 May 2006 is a day I wouldnt want to remember for the rest of my life. My future is in a total darkness right now... Tears + Disappoinment + Sadness + total loss...and anger....I know I have to move on....but, its not easy. Things haven been smooth....my career is going downhill since then....at last I know I found a job.. a good job...I like and pays me not too bad.. Now...everything is gone.. overnite....just becoz..of WAT....becoz, of who I am....

Jade Loves

The long waiting album of Jade's is out. Not Green color that kind of Jade loh its Jade 關心妍 that Jade loh. It had been a year since Jade's album . Its title Jade Loves... fits the content and the time the star invested perfectly. Overall this release is packed with 15 tracks covering Canto-, Mandarin, and English version pop songs as well as pure music segments. Considering all the precious overtime that Jade had to put up with to complete her latest treats, music lovers should spare some of their time to check out the results. Jade 最新主打歌歌名為「粉筆字」，表示將一切不開心事情抹去。Is very well recommended, nice & soothing. 另一首主打「玉石樂隊」亦已派台，由黃丹儀作、編曲，周耀輝填詞，蔡一智 監製。..三毛流浪記, 眼中桃花 is also very nice ...Hooray Jade...

02 May 2006

its our 1 year anniversary

How time flies.... in celebration of our big day we had dinner at Jumbo on 28 April on tami .. Today at sushi tei..extactly like a year ago...but, this time im the one who pay..and the feeling is of coz different...hahahah Now im a little one compared to a year ago... when tami is still trying to do all means to impress the yet little one to be. Heeee heee

I bought a crumpler bag for tami & tami bought me a little cheesey cake & a GERMANY tee shirt...coz, Germany will WIN...Goal Goal Goal.....Win win win

25 April 2006

My boss called for a meeting at 5.10pm. He told us that from tomorrow onwards, I will be switching workstation with my colleague & I will be fully in charge of our section. Till now, I still dont believe what I heard was true. I dont know what tomorrow will be...I might lose my job overnite...or I might stay here forever..??? I really dont know.....but, I will treasure every little chances I had.

best Thing in My Life

In times of loneliness
when I feel like giving everything I own in my life
in exchange for a moment or two
just having you by my side

in times of desperation
when all could do is holding on to what's left of you
just the thought of you will always be true
you're the best thing in my life

they say that love comes easy
as the love that goes with the hours of the night
well our mornings were always filled with loving
still in our eyes

you see I'm lost I'm hopelessly lost
inside my mind all because of you
just the thought of you will always be true
you're the best thing in my life

and when the morning comes
and the sun refuses to rise
and the night goes on without a star in the sky
I'll still be missing you
til the very day that I die
taking with me all the pain and misery
forgotten songs and memories of you

if you could see me and hear the words
I wanted to say
with you I lived a lifetime without
you can't face another day

if I could see you if only I could tell you
just how much I really love you
just the thought of you will always be true
you're the best thing in my life
you're the best thing ever the very best in my life

0-0

Well, last night was the first I bet on soccer again after 2 years..
Man Utd VS Sunderland...is really impossible... 0-0..and I still bet until 5 goals....smallie laffs & laff.... this is impossible. Tami & I watched till half time... & we decided to give up & go to bed instead.

Good Friday

Wow... the weekend is here again.... A long weekend...yippee... Had a chat with spp last nite. I asked her to join the next season superstar...hahahha I told her that my laybin will take banner & support her in SBC studio......

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Well, its bowtie birthday this weekend....but, the unfilial kids of him spent the long weekend away from home. Sad right..??? We already had dinner last nite...I spent $40 at the coffee shop downstairs...eating 煮 炒.

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Alrite, HAPPY & MERRY Easter everyone....

My little brother

My little brother has gone missing again. Yes...no where to be found since last Friday. I dun understand...why?? He's already turning 27 y/o...this year...why cant her just grow up....Laybin nearly cried out...while toking about him...I know she must be so hurt & worried..

Marriage

"Your younger cousin Angel...is getting married this Dec..." Blah Blah....Laybin started nagging...once I stepped out from the bathroom. "Well..?? Congrats & Good....GREAT" I repiled.

Well...I know what is coming out from her mouth..soon. True enough, she started...: Wah!! Everyone getting married....duno when will be my children getting married. Duno if I got the chance to see or not....blah blah...she continues.... Well, Good Luck I replied...& walked smartly back into my little room.

Stress is yet to come....for me I mean. Imagine, when my cousin preparing for her wedding...she Might...."MIGHT" call me to be her wat sister or duno wat....& at the wedding dinner...HAHAHA ... there goes the WHY?? WHEN?? WHERE?? Questions coming from all the aunties & uncles....WHY u haven found that MR right arr??? WHEN your turn arrr??? WHERE u working??? NO ONE u like meh..???

Best Of Luck....

Moira is sick

MOIRA....auntie Moi that Moi and ramen that RA. At last, I know what's the name of this sick he/she in the show. She is mad. Although, I dun like Jen..but I dun like the way MOIRA treats Jen....soo kelian. Yeah..I got to repeat, I dun like Jenny..

Coming to the end of "L word" season 3...knowing that Dana's death is approaching, its soo sad. I cried when, Dana is on the bed after the op...she is soo poor thing..luckily she still got "Al". Yes..I never like "LALANG" although, I know tami likes.....I just simply can stand her...how can she come back and want back Dana just like that. Even if Dana wans to leave AL, she shdn't encourage her...she's evil...and now when Dana needs her...where is she. Simply hates her.

Tina & Bet ...well, no comments.

Finally, Shane & Carmen makes a perfect couple. (At least till now)

Enjoy the show.... ...everyone.

Lost

I lose something very important to me. I duno wat to say and how to describle my feelings. You wouldnt understand. I can never ever find another one to replace it. Im feeling sooo lost..now. Im all alone at the cross road once again.

googoo

yummy yummy..

Looking back at the pics taken...during our trips to KL..

I really missed those days. Especially the food...heee...I know you loved the food there....

Although, its only 4 days..but we had soo much fun..remember how I wash & scrub the bathtub..and ended up washing the whole toilet & nearly flood the whole hotel room...hahhaha

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We spotted a "Restoran" and ended up taking pics on the streets...regardless how the wedding couples & guests all looking & wondering what are we up to...


We had so much fun then....

怯

I just want my tooth out .... is it that difficult???
From here to there....& there & here...ding dong ding dong here & there...spent $265 for nothing. Spent so much $$$ and my silly stupid tooth still in my gums.
Thats what I call Hospital. All I want is just to get my tooth out...and there..its leads to what heart problems...blah blah.... wah..@#$%.....very soon may as well send me to....IMH.

Now im on the cross road again...not knowing wat to do..where to head...???

Life Continues..............

Black Monday..

It had been a great long weekend. I claimed my off day & you on leave last friday... yah yah, everything was fine.."except for my little headache"..we had fun..watching tv...simple dinner...although, a little hipccus here & there...but, everything was fine..till, Sunday nite.

I went home..chat a little..and something huge came up again.. from no where. Why?? Its 12am in the morning...Why?? Must we have all these unnecessary arguments for nothing on a Monday morning....a working morning.


如何辛酸　如何淒慘　如何分擔
　如果仍然將從前再三哭訴是磨難
　拭乾眼淚回去　亦算節省一晚
　閒人一班　沉淪一番　自虐一番
　假如這同盟會輪流大講失戀太黯淡
　不如　對那人　鬥快鬥早心淡
　其實沒時間　為了他　比賽慘


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headache.....

Collected my new IC today. Wow..after 16 years...I got a brand new IC. I like it. At least, I dun look funny..with my that 2 auntie earrings anymore. heeee

Maybe Im getting old...got a terrible headache...after collecting my beautiful IC...I rushed home....took a bath & drop to bed. I woke up at abt 6.30pm... had my dinner & took Activ Fast again... but, my head is still like tearing apart.

What a Saturday...so.. age does matters..

Long time no seee

Had been sometime since I last blogged. Well, I turned..30. Its a huge stepping stone of my life... imagine, 30 years old... oooh my god. I cant believe this. Cannot believe the fact that I am actually 30 years old. What have I achieved for the past years....well, nothing much I would say.... the only best thing about my life right now is my job. A job I would regard as a career. After 10 over years of working life....I found this job...a place I hope to grow in. I will treasure very chances I can to stay & climb in this career ....

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Another big thing in my life is "you". You came into my life. I know you love me alot. Thanks for all your love ... I always tell myself, No one else love me as much as you do.

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4 days more to go. I will be going for a minor operation. A fear I had inside me since im a kid. A Dumex tin hit my tooth....and there goes my 2 front tooth. Blood kept flowing from my mouth with my dearest 姑媽 hugging me...we stood at the basin for ages....
I grew up... without my 2 front tooth.... it took me more than 10 years to have my 2 front tooth back. Dental..is the last thing I will ever thought of in my entire life.....Now, I dont have a choice...I dun wan this Impacted thing...in my gums....like a bomb...installed in me. I know I have to be strong ...but, is not easy..............

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"FRIENDS"... 2 years... how time flies. A friend, I lost touch..for 2 years...We used to chat everyday...almost everyday in the office. We used to 吹水 everyday.. in office. An incident...a small foolish incident...drawn us apart for 2 years. Sometimes...life is just that simple....look at the picture again with a clearer mind...some arguements are just so foolish. Guess, we had just grown out of it. Anyway, Im already 30 years old... what there's to fight about.

Good Night.