Baby fat..

After some search ... we found Baby fat at Toa Payoh Central....I repeat again... ANG MO KIO Never sell alarm clocks......Well, this is Baby fat who is 1 day old...hehehahhHAHHA

Im sooo touched..

Im soo touched & happy that my little brother gave me a little gift. He said that its for my new phone..hahahah Actually, the thingy is not the Astro boy that im happy abt...its the thoughts....

Pretty baby

A latest beautiful picture of my pretty baby Charlene for all to enjoy. Suddenly realised that she is a grown up kid now....

Alarm Clock Hunt..

I would like to announce to the whole world that... Ang mo kio...never sell nice alarm clocks...& NO WATCH SHOPS....so, if anyone want to buy alarm clocks....please dont go to Ang Mo kio....thank you...

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Im very happy today.... coz, Tami praises xiao fat.... she said that xiao fat is a fast learner & she is very proud that xiao fat can handle & know how to sell items in auction by himself already....heee HEHEEEEEEhahahha

Im also looking forward to the Hot Pot dinner spree tomorrow...hehhehehehhahhaha

Btw, tomorrow b4 my Hot Pot dinner....I will need to go to the Clinic to collect my medical report....haiz..I wonder how is my condition like.. Guess I will be having breakfast with laybin, then go over to the clinic..... khem...Khem..... xiao fat coughs like mad...past 2 nites....haiz..Poor Tami.

The biscuits which made me cry...

This is the biscuits which nearly make my tears flow....Its the best biscuit I ever taste in these 29 years.....Im so touched that smallie & fatfat actually bought this amazing biscuit for me.... Thanks sooo much...darlings....

~ H2O +

This is my whole new range of H2O products.... Its soo great...I will never use other products anymore...

Your life is never complete without ~H2O+

New set of 大長今

Tami... actually bought me a brand new set of 大長今 dvd....luckily, I managed to sell out the stupid dvd I bought from Poh Kim ...at least get back some $$. Thanks Tami....I love the dvd....but, my laybin actually told the whole world that I got a set of 大長今 dvd....now, all my aunties taking nos...waiting for their turn to borrow fm me to watch.. Silly laybin.

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After strong recommendation from Smallie....I decided to get PS: I love you....We cannot find the cover that I like at Raffles MPH....but, for my pattern is ...once I wan to get that thing I must get it now..cannot wait......But, for Tami is different....she wants to try if she can...she wans to get the best. Anyway, I walked out of MPH...with not a very nice face. Actually, Tami plans to bring xiao fat to buy the book somewhere else....to try our luck at PS Times....I screamed my head off....when I saw the book with the cover I like lying beautifully on the shelf......Thanks Tami.

very unhappy good night

Had a very unhappy..Good nite.......

Never expect that you will shut my phone off like that....one day.

張小嫻 - 悠長的背影

愛情只是人生其中一種追尋，卻是我們浪擲了最多光陰去追尋的。找尋幸福，然後發現，失望，有時候也是一種幸福。因為有所期待，才會失望。遺憾，也是一種幸福.

Above is a quote from 1 of my favourite author 張小嫻. I really like her books alot...I mean 散文. Will be going popular later ..hope to find this of hers...heard that its her best 散文 of the year...

One Inch Closer - 塞車

Glad that Mani's 2nd book is a great success again..

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There's some thing wrong with my X800... dun understand why?? Why alarm did not ring & not only that...the whole phone cant be switch on...not only that.. the whole phone is warm as if something burnt inside...I took out the battery...took out the sim card....& it works...again....Haiz.... This is not the first time.. wonder wat is wrong with my phone.

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One Inch Closer - 塞車, is Nicholas new album...& the songs are quite nice...

But, I hope that 塞車 will not happen on me anymore......

Btw, Im sooo angry with that Poh Kim...we will be going to Poh kim again later to change my dvd....its sooo fan to watch a dics then must change again..... think I soo free arr.....& that box set is not cheap also.....Never buy anything from POH KIM....

xiao fat + smallie = sianies

Sianie...is our new name....Xiao fat + Smallie = sianies...Has a very hard nite... I believe we have problems...communication problems.... In a relationship...communication is very very important... Hope that we can work together & start all over again...

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Waiting for Tami to off work..to go supper...& to Tami's place...

A Mobile phone without camera...

Just came home.......Sign my letter of appointment...& now got to go for medical Check up & got to buy a NO CAMERA mobile phone...

Smallie still laffs at me ...that mum is using 3120 which is w/o a camera....Actually I tot any how buy a cheap cheap phone will do... but, after some tots...I felt that...cannot lah, must buy a better one....& a phone I like....coz, I will be using this NO CAMERA more than my weekends phones.....Haiz....really duno how.....Tami already spent alot of $$ on me....so, I really dun want her to buy...but, I got no $$$ now....do u think laybin will buy for me..???????????????????????? Fat hope I think...coz, she alrady kept hinting to me that bow-tie HP need to upgrade.....haiz...

Good Luck to me.....muah

Can't sleep.....

Got to go sign appointment letter at 9am tomorrow....but, I still cant get to sleep... Just came home after spending a week at Tami's hse. Not used to my bed I think...im tooo used to have Tami beside me. Suddenly felt very strange...

Happy Birthday Mani

A very happy Birthday to Mani.....May all her wishes comes true..& may xiao Fat strike more 4D as days, months & years to come....HEeeeeheee

Durians for supper....

Our durians are still in the little fridge hahahhaha.....& we are having durians for supper later...while watching our 大長今....

1707 yo yo.... we strike 4D...Thanks to Mani muah..

Went home to washy clothes...& my beautiful Brother is still in his dreamland....yah its 5pm & he is still asleep...washed all his clothes....& left the house at around 7pm...and yah... he is still asleep....zzzzzzzzz

Had Chickyrice for dinner...really nice & cheap..heee Went home & online to check 4D results....I screamed out loud when I saw 1707 .....Mani 1707 ..we strike 4D...I screamed....Tami came running in to the room to check her betting slip... yah she bought system 1707....$1..
I bought 1707 $2 big...but, SOLD OUT......Wah lah....I nearly fainted...I screamed & cried my lungs out....

boo hoooo

我的驕傲 2 - 偶像成長漸進式

我的驕傲 2 - 偶像成長漸進式 is Mani New book...her 2nd book featuring the growing up with Twins. It will be release on 20 July 2005...& she will be having an autograph session in HK... It will be my greatest wish if one day I can attend her autograph session...meet her in person myself. I really admired her....(Smallie must be...puking now...)
In year 2001 when I get to know abt Twins & like Twins....at the same time I started to admire Mani...after reading her First book in 2004 July...I really fell in love with her courage & positive thoughts she had .......And with her "I can do it mind" make her going & thats how she climb from a sales girl at a small shop, a freelance part time model, by chance she get into Fitto Music(Ex EEG) as small clerk till what she is today...EEG 金牌經理人. Her life and struggle is not at all easy...

Mani : You are already a loser, if you said..u can't do it.

Joey Yung : 她很強，有判斷力、有精力、有衝勁，和她一起度過這六年，一同成長，感覺上大家已不再單單是同事，用人去形容可能比較貼切！在此再跟她說一聲她最熟悉的：「我要多謝Mani！」

Oh my 大長今 dvd is faulty

The dvd that Tami bought for me yesterday is faulty...so, we have to make a trip down to Poh Kim again to change a new entire set....That stupid Poh Kim...

Well, we had durians for dinner yesterday...heee Tami bought 6 durians...in the end, after eating the 3rd durians...we are already too full to move...the durians are sooo big & have soo much meat...hahhaha Tami & I full till we tummy ache..hahhHAHHA Too bad smallie & fatfat is not here.

Now our fridge have nothing but, DURIANS...hahhahahaHAHHAhahhaAHHA

xiao fat got a present today....yo hooo

yo hooo.... xiao fat got a present today...Tami actually bought the whole series of 大長今 DVD for me... heeee... I felt sooo heart ache...I dragged her out of Poh Kim... but, she said even if we dont get it today she will also come back to get it for me ..Tami said, she dont want me to stay up late to watch catch the SCV telecast..when I start work...next mth...haiz...tami...aiyo...

Tami asked me why dont I write my wishlist...imagine, I never write..she also know & buy this dvd for me... imagine I write...aiyo..
Smallie said she wants to borrow my set of dvd....ai yo..smallie u dun like wan lah..... not I dun want to lent you loh....if you really sure u got the time & you really think you like to watch then I lent u ....

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Went to Khong Meng San to visit 大姑丈....I really really thanks Tami very much...she is not a buddhist & she actually planned & brought me to temples & even to khong Meng San. I nearly backout...coz, the gates to the memorial hall was locked & in order to go up we had to walk thru the place when they burn the dead pp.....I walked & walked like smart baby like that..then I quickly turn & want to backout.....coz, I saw a lot of pics & candles of the new dead pp on the shelves... Tami told me we did nothing wrong & there are pp around here...& we are here to visit my uncle...nothing to be afraid of.. (A nun saw me U-turn & backout)...so pai sey.

Tami then hold my little hand... asked me to look straight & follow her....we made our way thru & up to the Hall...Tami...thanks for everything.... you are really my guardian angel..

VERY VERY FULL dinner....

Just came home after a very very full dinner at Shangri-La "the line" Rest. Which cost Tami $188....wow..wow....really got a shock out of my life. Shdn't have ordered the drinks...haiz...anyway, its tami's day...so..once in a while is ok.. she said....

We had many many things...the best of all is the prata hahahha I wanted a 2nd helping but, too full to fit into xiao fat's tummy anymore....my tummy was soo BIG & pain after eating that I got to walk & walk & walk....ai yo..& cant button my jeans somemore...

We took a bus back & nearly fainted while climbing the stairs....I suddenly felt soo giddy..Btw, I was listening to Tami's i-pod on our way home & tami as usual was napping in the bus....my aim is to get my tami a new i-pod when I strike 4D ....MUST be at least first or 2nd prize that kind hor...& not i bet that kind... ..Then I will buy for my Tami..coz, her's already got something wrong...

Alrite got to watch my 大長今 already...Good nite ...

Happy 34 Birthday Tami...

Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you Happy Birthday to Tami, Happy Birthday to you...... Hooray today is the long waiting Tami's Day...Xiao fat gave Tami her little presents on the dot at 12.03am on 14 July....why 12.03am.?? Coz, we are busy chasing after a cockroach at 12am...tooo busy jumping up & down. Ok... Tami found her puzzle under her guest room bed & her tee in the little box....I hope she likes the gifts....she read my blog last nite..heee
We fell asleep soon after that...coz, Tami got to go for interview this morning...

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A few phone calls woke me up this morning.... I opened my little eyes...Tami is preparing to go for her interview....b4 I can say bye...she rushed out of the house...coz, she's running late...after she left..I decided to snooze for a little while more....never expect that Tami came running home less than an hr later....knocking on the door....I jumped out of bed & ran to the door....whew....

Prepared breakfast for My Tami, I cooked MEE SUA...but, not LIVER mee sua..its Prawn mee sua. .. Wanted to add a Hard boiled egg in it... but, it turns out to be a 3/4 boiled egg....haiz.....in the end I wasted 1 egg...& ended up just cracking 1 egg into the soup....hope that Tami like my cooking...heee

We will be going for dinner at 6pm tonite... a great dinner at Shangri-La..hee HEeeeee

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Oops... forgot abt Ah Sa....Twins is coming to sg for NDP @ Yishun.....on August 9...hahhahaha We can get to see my Sa & that awful Gill again...btw, we had names for our babies hmmmm the first daughter is 卓桐 & our 2nd daughter is 卓兒...heeee..Heee Dun ask me abt surnames...coz, we havent figure that out yet..

Tami's Birthday Eve....

Tami is out shopping for her clothes & shoes for her interview tomorrow....she dont want to bring me along coz, she said Im sick. Actually Im not very sick...I just cough & have blocked nose. I wanted very much to go with her but, I think Tami wants me to rest more so that I will be fine tomorrow. We had a little talk last nite, I hope that from now on....Tami will share her thoughts with me & dont keep everything to herself anymore. I know its not easy ..coz, she had been living all alone all these years...I will give you time...Hope that Tami will try to open herself up to me.

Well, today is 13 July 2005.... Tami's Birthday Eve.... as planned I will give her the puzzle tonite at 12am..but, she is having an interview tomorrow morning, so Im really thinking if...giving tonite will be a good choice. I will see how it goes...tonite...heee heee

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Got a job offer... going down to their office to sign my appointment letter on Next Tuesday 9am...haa haaa I will make a trip to the temple one of these days..
Will give a treat to Smallie & fatfat on Conrad nite....to celebrate my new job, new life...hooray.. Hope that tomorrow, Tami's interview will go on smoothly...she is so tense up preparing for the interview...

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Dreamt of 大姑丈 and grandma. Dont really remember whats in the dream... I just remember its a house...they came over to my house & I opened the door to welcome them...I still hold onto Grandma to support her.
Anyway, I planned to pay a visit to 大姑丈 on Firday....it had been a long time since I visited him....

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Sometimes I really hope I can read your mind...

We had a very quiet steamboat dinner..it shd be fun..but, it turns out to be quiet..we are in our own world. I dont know what happened or what had I done to make her angry or pissed....what happened?? I kept asking : "Are you ok?" "What happened?" She just said "No Ah!"....

Is Communicating with me that hard?? I really hope we can talk it out... & discuss whatever bothering us. If Im angry,...I show it out...& When im happy...I also show the whole world....Is it really that difficult??

Tomorrow is her birthday eve... this week we are suppose to have fun & treasure every moment of it..we have been looking forward to this week....but, everything turns out wrong...I saw her sitting in the living staring at the "Off" TV....Am I really that impossible to share your thoughts or problems with?? Am I really so hard to live with...

...得不到,永遠都是最好的.....得到,永遠都不會珍惜....

2 days to Tami's Bornday...

Im a taking a risk here posting this entry....coz, im at tami hse...she alseep. Any moment she get up...I will be "Gotcha"... Pray that she wont check her history & find this page. Anyway, lots of updates in my life.....a great heap of my life...well, yesterday MINDEF called me. They offered me the post of Admin officer. Higher income compared to my previous jobs & better prospect tooo...Hooray..Im now waiting for their call to go down to their camp to sign the appointment letter once its ready. Tami brought me to Sushi Tei for a celebration last nite....I called smallie & laybin...of coz, their are over joy with the great news.... At last, the sun seems to be shinning again.

Another news is Tami got an interview opp from NYP...on her Birthday 14 July. I know, she is rather stress...I duno wat can I do to help ..guess, I can only stand by her side & support her every decision.

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Got up rather early this morning to go marketing with Tami... becoz, I must start to adjust my sleeping hrs back to normal ... as I will be back into the working world soon. We planned to have a steam boat dinner tonite.... we bought prawns, fishballs, yong tau foo, veg, hotdogs, mushrooms....etc...

hmmm, we invited smallie & fatfat over...but, too bad smallie tummy ache.....Take care smallie....

What a plan.....

After all the planning of how to deliver Tami's presents to her hse on 11 July Mon..while she was working....all became a waste...coz, I turn up taking a cab instead. Coz, its raining...I wasnt feeling really well...& Tami called me at 3pm..saying she will be off duty in abt 30 mins.... oh my god... 3pm.. Im still beautifully dancing at HOME....my home ...my OWN little home. All the gifts not wrap & card havent write....in the end... I have to rash a cab down in the rain...with a huge puzzle, a bag & a big paper bag.

Reached Tami's hse...in 1 piece....got to wrap up the HUGE puzzle & write the card & wrap up the present...haiz....

Luckily everything was done just at the nick of time...I still got time to laz around on the bed to watch TV...when tami comes home...heee, your presents well kept & hidden...

4 days to Tami's Birthday

We had a celebration for Tami yesterday at Partyworld. Poor me & fatfat got to run round orchard to get cake & then candles for Tami. Planned to get breadtalk cake, but...to my surprised...No small green tea cake on the shelf...I nearly screamed my head off. I called smallie & fatfat..." HOW I asked them???" Fatfat reached Taka..& we bought a cheese cake at swissbakery...Then, there's another problem... no candles...Fatfat & I got to run all round orchard to get candles....& pls I would like to announce that "TAKA Cold Storage dont sell CANDLES"...Next is Party world KTV ...They had quite a number of new cantonese songs....but, their service is rather poor...fatfat & I got to wait soo long for the room..& the place is sooo smokey. Poor us ( Smallie & I ) still got to search the Mandarin songs 1 by 1....
Smallie & fatfat gave Tami a Adidas backpack & I gave Tami a little key chain ...

Well, glad that everything went on smoothly & had dinner at sushi Tei....

Althought, we had a little fight after we reached home....but, it all ends well...

Good nite.

6 more days to Tami's Birthday

Had a wonderful shopping spree with my Tami...smallie & fatfat today. We went to suntec..bought alot of stuffs...shorts, my Toby’s vcd(hee), bra, panties, ....yah & wrapper for Tami..& smallie bought an Electronic Keyboard which cost Fatfat $399...Wow..Wow..

Tami is not feeling very well today...I don’t know, wat shd I do. She kept coughing & coughing...& looks rather tired. I really hope I can do something to help...no matter wat, I will drag her to the doc...on Sunday.

Tomorrow is Sat...09 July 2004. Tami's 34 Birthday celebration...heeee.. Well, as planned. I will go & get the green tea cake from bread talk(coz, got voucher...must save $$$...IM broke..haiz)..ok, after that meet fatfat at 1.15pm...pass her the cake so that tami wont suspect..hahaha.. We will then make our way to Partyworld KTV...dinner plan at Sushi Tei. I bought a key chain for Tami today...hmmm, don’t know when to give her....btw, I bought an Alpha Bear "L" for her..online.. It will either reach her place tomorrow or Mon...I guess..heeee. how can my "W" bear do without a "L" bear...got a hard time searching for the "L" in auction...must thank smallie for teaching me to buy things fm auction...

Bought a Piggy tee for Tami...which will give her only on 14 July 2005...for her wear to dinner that nite.. I planned to put that tee into that puzzle box...fill the box with 34 hearts...every little hearts contains a message to my tami...heeeee...Well, from afternoon 2.30pm till 4pm... only managed to fold 18 hearts....Gum ba tei....got to finish the 34 hearts tonite....
Come to think of it, I think I might really have problem bringing the Puzzle, the tee in a BIG BOX...& my bag to tami hse on Monday afternoon....the puzzle already not small...some more I still wrapped...5 layers of newspaper, 3 layers of brown paper...& duno how many layers of Wrapping paper yet...The not small puzzle...became a very huge puzzle....haiz.. really headache...but, I dun feel like taking cab...waste $$....dont think I can take bus...coz, I will be even more clumsy carrying up & down the bus....I might even roll down the bus or trip over the stairs. Train will be a better choice. Guess, I will take train to AMK then change to cab....coz, im very worried...how am I going to board & get down the bus. Another worry is, wat if Tami found her not small puzzle before 14 July 12am....at one glance everyone knows 90% its a Puzzle.


Well, hope that everything will go on smoothly tomorrow....

Long long nite

Just came home... had a rather long tiring nite. We are supposed to go for a shopping spree at IMM Daiso today...but, during dinner time..We had an argument. It’s not really very very serious in the beginning....I just asked her when is she going to extend her passport..coz, I dun wish to waste her 5 days of leaves without planning. Never expect that this little dinner tok will turn into a horrible fight. It started not becoz, she dun want to extend her passport or anything like that...it all started becoz, of a FACE. A face or gesture that pissed me off. Most important thing is after she knows im unhappy, she still remain silence....this is something I cant stand...SILENCE.. I made a move by buying her a can of green tea & a milk tea for myself...but, after that still silence.. I walked off to Daiso myself after drinking my tea...& she follows....SILENCE...still SILENCE... The more I start to boil... I cannot stand Silence like that. I said: "You Hate Me"...doesn’t really mean ..that I felt that you hate me. I just want you to know that your face really shows that you hate me. I said we are not going to make it....its becoz, I want you to do something..not to create more silence & cool expressions of yours.

At Long John Silver. It’s sweet of you to get me a drink & snacks to eat ..coz, u remember I did not really eat during dinner time. Soon, everything turn sour again...coz, I realized that you dont know me well enough. Its not the first time we had fights like that....I told you before I cannot stand silence during an argument. I cant believe my ears when you answer back: " How you know that things will be better...when I tok??" & " I duno wat will I say when Im angry...I can say even more cutting words that might hurt you more."
At that moment...I really can stand it anymore....coz, I know...if I dun walk off, I will create a scene at Long John....

I ran & walk & ran aimlessly...not knowing where & wat to do...tears started flowing like anything..I nearly wanted to smash the phone on the floor. I cant believe that someone whom loves me sooo much can hurt me like that. Especially, when I think of how I spent sleepless nite making the puzzle...& planning her bday...hurts me even more...I kick a stone(luckily Im not wearing my new shoe today)...which hurts my little toe too....at that moment, I just want to hit myself hard. I think alot of pp must be wondering...wat happened to this mad women....crying so loudly & hitting her head with her phone like that.

After some hunting game...we met. I hugged her. I know, I still love her alot...alot. If I dont, I wouldn’t be so hurt & react this way. She brought me home...but, I can’t stay overnite...coz, I spent too many nite away from home lately.. 12.30am, I had to take a cab home. I felt very very bad...kept spending her $$...but, Im really rather broke..soon. I cant go on like that...I have to start selling my stuffs to get $$...I cant possible ask her to pay for all my stuffs....although, she is paying most of it now...haiz....Im really useless.

Is it because of my thyroid that coz, me to behave like this?? Or is it becoz, Im jobless...or becoz, of wat that made me soo emotional?

My First Entry

Hello..

Thanks to smallie who encouraged me to create this blog of my own.....so, that people around me knows how im feeling. I told smallie...my English not good, & I duno much abt IT stuffs.....& I might not know wat to write?? She reminded me that im not going for an Essay competition...just writing out my thoughts & feelings for the day to let the people around me know me better. Thanks again to Smallie & Fatfat for supporting me & care for me all these while.

Well, 7 days more to go for Tami's Birthday. I started preparing for this big day a few months ago...planning wat presents to give her & how to celebrate for her...this is the first time I celebrate her Birthday with her....I want it to be special & memorable for her... but, im jobless now and without an income made my plannings even harder...I had to crack my little brains to plan something cheap & wonderful. I planned to make her a puzzle, coz...I think she likes puzzle alot & its very meaningful...coz, its the first & only puzzle I will make for my entire life. I nearly fainted, I felt giddy every nite after rushing the puzzle with sleepless nites...& it nearly crack my back bones. I bought the frame on 6 June 2005 at Bugis...got to carry the BIG frame home like a mad women in the train.....I started the puzzle on 8 June 2005...as I spent too many nites at Tami's hse.... so, my speed was going rather slow....after a week not even 1/4 done yet...On 23 June....I decided to rush up the puzzle so, I spent 2 days & 2 sleepless nites to complete the 1000 pcs puzzle on 24 June 2005. Im so, happy when its done...Its a Twins Puzzle....coz, I felt that its becoz of Twins we get to know each other...somehow, Twins brought us together.... ..I planned to give the puzzle to her on 13 July 2005 at 12am....heee...

Hope that she will like it.