Things seems to be going downhill in my life. Went home yesterday, laybin told me that she needs $$$(yah again as usual) I havent been giving her $$$ since Im jobless ... she told me directly that she needs $$$ to pay bills.. I stay for the nite...its no longer the room or home that I used to love staying in. I felt like a stranger. I woke up early went marketing in NTUC & headed back to Tami's home...prepared a nice dinner..& trying to surprise her. This is the home... my home ..I felt I'm home.
After dinner, Tami told me that her sister is coming to singapore to work...which means I have to go. I just lied to my laybin that I got a job(coz, I dun want her to worry)at Changi so.. its too far fm home...I got to move to my frd's place...she buy my story...everything going on fine...till, Tami told me that "Her sister coming over to sg...TO WORK" Do you understand what I meant???
I kept telling myself, its ok that you lost that job...you stilll have this home..u still have Tami!!!! Now, everything have changed..the wind is blowing in the other direction...
My whole life is in a mess rite now. I lost my job. The best job I will ever find...becoz of WHAT??? I hate myself...hate my life...
From the moment she told me her sister is coming to sg to work...& that she have no choice..... I know what lies infront of me...and where I stand. I can only depend on myself now... to think of a brand new story.. another lie to laybin ...to move bk home....
Why are all these happening to me?? What have I done???
Nothing is forever...I can only depend on myself.....
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