Star Mobile Twins 一時無兩演唱會 2006

My new pets.

I truly believes that Fishes will really make a person calm & makes you feels go. Maybe I like the sea, water & swim. I bought a few little fishies and placed them in my office. I feel good looking at them swimming around. I tot bringing some home & place them in my little room as well. heee..hee Haiz, but....every morning I got the same fear in me whenever I step into the office. Will my fishes be murdered to death by assholes.???? I know this asshole believes in Feng Shui very much.... so, Im actually taking up this as a gamble. I told him...putting fishes here will bring good feng shui to all of us. Although, he cast himself away fm us whenever we tok & play with the fishes....but, he did not touch my fishes...at least not yet. I really need to go temple this weekend.


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Less than a month to our HK trip. A trip we have long for it.... I told myself....I must enjoy myself. We have come this far..planning & looking so much forward to it for not only months but, years....we shd treasure not only the trip but, the planning as well. Nothing can or should spoil my trip.

Life Sucks...

There is a time..when I feel like Im the most lucky, happy girl on earth. Getting this job is like the most successful thing that has happened in the life so far. It made me laff like anything...it made be feel very secure that I might be working here all my life if I don't fail the "test".......but, yesterday I cried. I cried to myself at work. Its the first time I cried here.
I don't want to admit defeated..I don't want to lose to that asshole "Kel". Yah, he tried to play games again & this time I lost...coz, I blow up infront of him. I locked myself in the store & cried. I dont wish to play any games with him...I just want to work...I just want a secure & happy job. This is the job I have been looking for all my life....but, he's not letting me go...I know he wants revenge. He's mad....He's crazy.....I know I must be strong. I must. Coz, I can only count on me...myself to fight all these... all others are blind & silly enough to let him made used of....I know Im alone...in this....& I must be smart & strong to be the last one standing in this game.

xiao mao mi

A belated Birthday gift to by beloved Ah Sa. Her name is Xiao mao mi....

Heng... its still in November...ha heee

Hong Kong

Just came back from HK...and yes... we are planning another trip in Jan. I spent like siao in Disneyland & EEG showroom....haiz. Btw, I got a new baby... my sony baby... sony ericsson W800i as my early christmas gift.. heheeeee. Thanks to Tami.. muah ...heee

Yes... Hong Kong Trip in Jan. Firstly thanks to Hoho/pui for the tickets. Next is that Fat Ass... I know she is the last person we ever want to see on earth. ..but, its silly to pay more to stay at other Hotel just to avoid her. We shd show her that we are together happily having fun with smallie, fatfat, pui... No matter wat we have each other to go thru all these... she is all alone by herself....so wat if she has the FC with her...she is still as lonely as never... for us, we are happy coz we have one another...& the more we shd show her...how happy are we with our frds...

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We will be going to book our HK trip soon ..... in another few hrs time... with small & fat...heheeeeee

Pootz

Woow...tomorrow is the day...

How time flies. After months of planning....the day is here. We will be flying off to HK in 9 hours time. We will miss Fat fat & smaller alot.. boohoo hoo.

Reached Tami hse an hr ago. To my horror....I thought tami's luggage was a camera bag. 2 of Tami's luggage can go into mine. haiz...

Alrite... I got to go & mum mum already....

Good Bye.....

4 more days to go....

4 more days to our HK trip... hippy.. hope that everything will go on fine. No arguements or serious fights. Well, we spent the whole morning watching vcds. Now waiting for Tami to shower & prepare to attend my grandpa's Birthday dinner.

Spp called me, she cfm coming to sg on 03 Nov....well, which means that I might bump into that fatass... be either at the airport or the event. Some must be thinking, why?? Why so scared of that Fatass?? No, I am not or rather we are not afraid or scared of her. I just can't stand the sight of her...and I know my own weakness. Easily affected with unnecessary stuffs. I hope I can be as cool & as ginko as smallie as times.

Well, whatever....4 more days to go & which means only 3 more days to clear my work b4 leaving.....phew.

Shane

Cool...

Lust, Love, Lost, Lies, Laughter...

A relationship consists of all the above... do you agree??




10 days to go....

Took my breath away

Had a rather sporty Friday. Had a walk, at a park & a long walk up a mountain with some of my fellow colleagues. The walk is fine but, the slope really nearly took my life away. At that moment, I really thought im dying. I can’t breath. Im fainting. Got a terrible headache, my ankle is sooo pain. I kept asking myself, why?? WHY WHY?? Why must I torture myself like that? How I hope Tami was there right beside me. Im sure Tami will ask me to stop & take care of me. Completed the entire walk about 1 hr. Had a quick shower & throw myself upon an OSIM massage chair…which really made my day.

13 days to go....

再說一次我愛你

www.allaboutlovethemovie.com


15 days to go....

16 days to go....

16 more days to go..to my date with chippy & daley.

Well, had a really busy tight schedule at work...got a no of stuffs to clear b4 I go on long leave & today I had 2 meetings which already took up half my day. Friday will be another busy day out of office....which make me another day gone. Next week, I will be attending a 2 days course..means another 2 days gone. I have never been so busy & useful in my entire life @ work.

Just a shot

A pic to share..

Spent $190 for a pair of new glasses....phew..

Well, dun have a choice as my glasses...gone apart. Made my way straight to the Optical right after I knock off....& dash into the shop to make a pair of $190 glasses..to be collected of Friday. The maid in the shop gave me a rather good bargain ...but, still rather heart-ache. My laybin told me to give her $300 a month to help her with the household expenses...& on top of that, I still got to pay the Cable TV & max online bills every month....

I know this is nothing new to those who know my laybin well....but, its rather stressful when you dun even know when will you be jobless once again. I no longer look forward to Friday to welcome my new pair of glasses...but, stress & regretted that I spent $190 just like that. If my laybin will to take $$ from me last nite, I will not spend a single cent today. I would not have made a new pair of silly glasses.

Whats for dinner?

Well, we had a rather restless saturday. Tami worked nite shift and off duty only this morning 7am. We reached tami's place at around 10am.. hand Breakfast & off to bed. We slept all the way to 4.30pm...then 6pm. Actually, we planned to have steamboat for dinner to mark our 5th months...but, haiz...... guess im too used to watching vcds drama at tami place..so, feel alittle bored & sian without anything to watch this week.

Its 7pm...& im too lazy to get out of the house. We thought of going to Sushi Tei, eat prata, Chicken rice, ....... but, our discussion drag on till 8pm...& I dont feel like getting dress up & go out anymore. Think, 10 mins to shower, another 10 mins to dress up...10 mins to look into the mirror, comb my hair & put on my lipstick, another 10 mins to dili deli abit....shake here, shake there abit...10 mins to put on shoes...shake & chat abit for another 10 mins...well, it will be another 45 mins or so, before we can get out of the house. Alright the worst thing is ...waiting for the bus....wait for 15-20 mins for the bus then travel for maybe 20 mins to bishan or 15 mins to Serangoon....well, by the time we reach there will be around 9.30pm....wats the point...provided we are catching a movie...but, no good movies on now...

So, I told Tami that I dun want to go out. Tami then decide for me...she will go out to get dinner....she also duno wat to get...so, its a surprise for me....hee heee

Well, the moral of my story today is ...we wasted alot of time preparing & dili deli as if we are dressing up for a concert everyday...before getting out of the house...(Im sure smallie is worse than me...she will take at least an hour to dili deli.)

smallie says....

Had a little chat with little smallie last nite. "You shd treasure Tami" she said. Tami is your guardian angel....these words kept ringing in my ears...how & wat will my life & world without tami???

Tami thanks for being there whenever Im down, happy , depress and sorrows...I know im not easy to handle....thanks for being my guardian angel.



28 more days to my Chippy & Daley...

1 more month to go...

Hippy yeh yeh.....exactly 1 more month to go before my Disney Hong Kong trip...
Hooray....

Salene..

What a day..



Life is never smooth...SMILE




Everything will be fine....when the sun rise tomorrow...
S M I L E...

Sing to destress yourself...

Had a terrible day at work. I always feel that working with men will be better than working with WOMEN. ..Coz, women are those gossipy ones...& tends to create politics, problems & problems....working in my ex co...for soo many years I thought that was the worst...but, to my greatest surprise...MEN are worse. My colleagues in my dept now are all MEN..married & father that kind. To my horror, they are worse than aunties....A tell K....K shoot R....A tell H...H shoot M...K shoot A & A shoot K.....wah lau....& the worst thingy is ....Im dragged into their fight for nothing...now..they even said that 2 of the guys are after me & harassing me. Please...PLEASE don't drag me into this I told them. Now all these has already spread it to my lady boss ears...& this is serious matter now....They are all married man...& this harassing is NO JOKE.

At 6pm...the first thing I want to do is get out of that place & call you. You told me: "Nevermind, just ignore them." Well, this is the last thing I want to hear. Especially from you.....And I don't think you understand what Im going thru. I guess, we have different mindset. Maybe, to you...cleaning up your house is more important than any other thing.

I reached home....had a good shower...& sang my heart out to destress. True enough, it helps .......

A fine dinner...

A dinner with not much ups & downs. This is how I felt abt my dinner tonite at my ye ye hse. I reached ye ye's place at around 5pm. Most of the uncles & aunties were already there....only left with lay & of coz her daughter. Had a rather boring hr watching dvd...with my stupid cousin. I can see that my bro also cannot tahan anymore....Luckily at this very moment, my little one came running into the room...which brighten everything...this little niece of mine is really a big girl now...well her hair is even longer than mine.
Soon, its dinner time.....had a fun dinner...laughing & cracking silly jokes with my cousins & aunties of the same table. We drank red wine & some beer....while the kids ran down to play with lanterns & candles. Took a few pics with my dearest Gu ma. She looks thin... & so is my grandpa..he looks weak.....haiz...shd spent more time with them.

Happy Moon Day...

Its the Lantern festival again. Had a rather special Lantern festival last nite... Spent an hour at the Temple taking pics, praying & making a wish. Nothing really very special but, had the feel of the festival. Will be going to Ye Ye hse for dinner later...have been quite sometime since I last met them. Well, as usual they will be asking alot of my work...haiz...wat can I say other than saying its fine & everything is going on good & great.!!!

I don't know wat lies infront of me tomorrow.. but, wat can I do?? No matter wat, I still have to go on ...no matter happy or unhappy, I still have to get on with my life...I still have to work till the day comes. Whenever there's an incoming mail or call...my heart jumped. I don't know when that will come.... I shd always bear in my mind that no matter what, I will always have Tami, Smallie, Fatfat & Pangpang by my side.

The Maid vs Red Eye

Caught these movies during the past 2 days.... The maid is not as scary as it looks..coz, the moral of the show is...there's nothing to be afraid if you did not harm anyone... In that movie, the maid came back to haunt her sir & mdm..coz, they harm her, rape her & murdered her...

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During the show, I got a msg fm my colleagues that one of my colleague's son just passed away...

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Red Eye - is a great show ...very gan cheong from head to tail...its about a lady who is being threaten to harm an important minister in exchange that her father will be killed.....hmmmm, in this kind of dilemma...what will u do???

This is life...

In life, you got to choose.... you cant get both. You cant get best of the both. You got the best job... you got to let go XXXX. If you want to choose to be with him...u got to let go the rock & jump into the water once again. I choose to jump into the icey water again instead of staying on the rock which may turn into an island.....coz, I know you will be with me....


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As for Xinhui( who is also known as SIN huey....)

She got a powerful voice which made everyone thinks & feels that she WON....but, she cant get the crown.

PS : You cant get best of the both in everything.....

Xiao Fat's Thoughts...

2005 is really a great heap of my life. I got a job... a good job. A place I think that I will want to stay for long. After floating around for a while...at last I found a place, a rock I can stand up once again. I hope in the months & years to come..this rock will become an island I can stay in ....grow with. Well, no one can tell what lies infront of us...we should all hope & look forward to the best & most important...must think positive...POSITIVE...

From the bottom of my heart...

This is the day...

A wonderful weekend...

We had a couple of disagreements & dramas here & there...but, overall everything turns out fine....very fine & wonderful. We had a fun time at the steambath & sauna..a romantic nite with a nice dinner & relaxing bath. Thanks tami. I will be looking forward to the next wonderful nite...

oh my god.....Silver is not a Tea pot.

Why Why Why....Silver is pretty & sang quite well..loh. The judges actually comment that "Deng xiao Ping" PRETTY....& that Kelly look so FAKE... Silver is sooo nice, she even thank her supports....Cheers for Silver

I know Silver & Derrick can make it...Yo yoyo

M3

Support M3 何维健 heheee...Heee...

My mood results....

Hmmm, This is my mood test results.....hmmm.... well,


MOOD ANALYSIS TEST RESULTS


You are constantly hoping that your good fellowship and attitude and your 'love for your fellow man (or women)' will give you peace of mind. You need people - people around you to care for you and to show you that they care. It is this hope that keeps you going, the hope that makes you the type of person that indeed you are. Your own need for approval seemingly makes you always ready to help others and in exchange you seek love, warmth and understanding. You will always listen to others and you are open to new ideas which hopefully will prove fruitful and interesting.

You are working extremely hard trying to improve your image in the eyes of others. You are looking for acknowledgement from your peers and those who come into your sphere of influence. You want to be liked, not for what people think of you but for what you really are.

You are confined and trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way out. Whatever you seem to do to resolve the problem hasn't worked out. Fortunately you are able to gain some aspect of relief from someone close to you.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time. You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are. You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer - MOVE!

Tami Cooking...

Well, tami is cooking now..cooking breakfast for all...hehhhehhee Smallie & fatfat spent the nite at our place....they are still sleeping hee..heheh Yesterday we bought a lot of stuffs fm NTUC.. I can open a Tea house....I bought 3 packets of different Tea...hhehhehe

BTW, smallie's sushi are really nice.. woow....but, hmm abit tooo big loh.. eat a few very full liao..so are fat fat's PINKY jellies....yum yum....& thanks tami for her great even at nite also crispy spring rolls... Come to think of it, looks like im only the one who bought or made nothing for them to eat....nobody tell me must buy thing.....not I dun prepare mah....

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Have been busy searching for my new HP no. online last nite..till fatfat also shake her little head...HAHahahhah
Ai ya, paying $$ for it...may as well, choose the best no. I like mah....rite..???

Fatfat just woke up...hehehee Smallie is still zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....Tami is cooking & i will continue my search for my beautiful HP no.....Happy Sunday...

At last its Saturday...

Never ever in my life that I will fell asleep before Tami like a Piglet..zzzzzzzzzz...Well, last nite I did. Tami went to 7-11 at atound 11.50pm....& by the time tami came hm....im already zzzzzzzzzzz on the bed..." not even hugging pang pang"....I just fainted on the bed. I am soooo tired....why am I like this??? Haiz.....

Well... we are watching Charlie & the woodpecker tonite...at 7.10pm...heee HEHheheh btw, Im waiting for smallie sushi... hmmm??? Smallie's sushi...wonder how it taste..???

hello...everyone

Hello ...everyone. Long time since my last entry...well, I start work..& have been very busy & tired...everyday after work...phew..I sleep fm 11.30pm to 6am...also can be as tired as never sleep...wonder how tami can ta han...haiz... Everything is great at work...but, Im kind of worried..that I can handle all the stuffs....my colleague is leaving sooon, & we dont have much time to hand over everything....kind of stress....well, anyway...now that I realised that..a working adult really LOOK forward to weekends.....heeeee..HEEEE Hippy...its thursday tomorrow....yo yo

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Tami bought xiao fat a nice adidas jacket....THank you Tami...

Baby fat..

After some search ... we found Baby fat at Toa Payoh Central....I repeat again... ANG MO KIO Never sell alarm clocks......Well, this is Baby fat who is 1 day old...hehehahhHAHHA

Im sooo touched..

Im soo touched & happy that my little brother gave me a little gift. He said that its for my new phone..hahahah Actually, the thingy is not the Astro boy that im happy abt...its the thoughts....

Pretty baby

A latest beautiful picture of my pretty baby Charlene for all to enjoy. Suddenly realised that she is a grown up kid now....

Alarm Clock Hunt..

I would like to announce to the whole world that... Ang mo kio...never sell nice alarm clocks...& NO WATCH SHOPS....so, if anyone want to buy alarm clocks....please dont go to Ang Mo kio....thank you...

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Im very happy today.... coz, Tami praises xiao fat.... she said that xiao fat is a fast learner & she is very proud that xiao fat can handle & know how to sell items in auction by himself already....heee HEHEEEEEEhahahha

Im also looking forward to the Hot Pot dinner spree tomorrow...hehhehehehhahhaha

Btw, tomorrow b4 my Hot Pot dinner....I will need to go to the Clinic to collect my medical report....haiz..I wonder how is my condition like.. Guess I will be having breakfast with laybin, then go over to the clinic..... khem...Khem..... xiao fat coughs like mad...past 2 nites....haiz..Poor Tami.

The biscuits which made me cry...

This is the biscuits which nearly make my tears flow....Its the best biscuit I ever taste in these 29 years.....Im so touched that smallie & fatfat actually bought this amazing biscuit for me.... Thanks sooo much...darlings....

~ H2O +

This is my whole new range of H2O products.... Its soo great...I will never use other products anymore...

Your life is never complete without ~H2O+

New set of 大長今

Tami... actually bought me a brand new set of 大長今 dvd....luckily, I managed to sell out the stupid dvd I bought from Poh Kim ...at least get back some $$. Thanks Tami....I love the dvd....but, my laybin actually told the whole world that I got a set of 大長今 dvd....now, all my aunties taking nos...waiting for their turn to borrow fm me to watch.. Silly laybin.

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After strong recommendation from Smallie....I decided to get PS: I love you....We cannot find the cover that I like at Raffles MPH....but, for my pattern is ...once I wan to get that thing I must get it now..cannot wait......But, for Tami is different....she wants to try if she can...she wans to get the best. Anyway, I walked out of MPH...with not a very nice face. Actually, Tami plans to bring xiao fat to buy the book somewhere else....to try our luck at PS Times....I screamed my head off....when I saw the book with the cover I like lying beautifully on the shelf......Thanks Tami.

very unhappy good night

Had a very unhappy..Good nite.......

Never expect that you will shut my phone off like that....one day.

張小嫻 - 悠長的背影

愛情只是人生其中一種追尋，卻是我們浪擲了最多光陰去追尋的。找尋幸福，然後發現，失望，有時候也是一種幸福。因為有所期待，才會失望。遺憾，也是一種幸福.

Above is a quote from 1 of my favourite author 張小嫻. I really like her books alot...I mean 散文. Will be going popular later ..hope to find this of hers...heard that its her best 散文 of the year...

One Inch Closer - 塞車

Glad that Mani's 2nd book is a great success again..

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There's some thing wrong with my X800... dun understand why?? Why alarm did not ring & not only that...the whole phone cant be switch on...not only that.. the whole phone is warm as if something burnt inside...I took out the battery...took out the sim card....& it works...again....Haiz.... This is not the first time.. wonder wat is wrong with my phone.

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One Inch Closer - 塞車, is Nicholas new album...& the songs are quite nice...

But, I hope that 塞車 will not happen on me anymore......

Btw, Im sooo angry with that Poh Kim...we will be going to Poh kim again later to change my dvd....its sooo fan to watch a dics then must change again..... think I soo free arr.....& that box set is not cheap also.....Never buy anything from POH KIM....

xiao fat + smallie = sianies

Sianie...is our new name....Xiao fat + Smallie = sianies...Has a very hard nite... I believe we have problems...communication problems.... In a relationship...communication is very very important... Hope that we can work together & start all over again...

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Waiting for Tami to off work..to go supper...& to Tami's place...

A Mobile phone without camera...

Just came home.......Sign my letter of appointment...& now got to go for medical Check up & got to buy a NO CAMERA mobile phone...

Smallie still laffs at me ...that mum is using 3120 which is w/o a camera....Actually I tot any how buy a cheap cheap phone will do... but, after some tots...I felt that...cannot lah, must buy a better one....& a phone I like....coz, I will be using this NO CAMERA more than my weekends phones.....Haiz....really duno how.....Tami already spent alot of $$ on me....so, I really dun want her to buy...but, I got no $$$ now....do u think laybin will buy for me..???????????????????????? Fat hope I think...coz, she alrady kept hinting to me that bow-tie HP need to upgrade.....haiz...

Good Luck to me.....muah

Can't sleep.....

Got to go sign appointment letter at 9am tomorrow....but, I still cant get to sleep... Just came home after spending a week at Tami's hse. Not used to my bed I think...im tooo used to have Tami beside me. Suddenly felt very strange...

Happy Birthday Mani

A very happy Birthday to Mani.....May all her wishes comes true..& may xiao Fat strike more 4D as days, months & years to come....HEeeeeheee

Durians for supper....

Our durians are still in the little fridge hahahhaha.....& we are having durians for supper later...while watching our 大長今....

1707 yo yo.... we strike 4D...Thanks to Mani muah..

Went home to washy clothes...& my beautiful Brother is still in his dreamland....yah its 5pm & he is still asleep...washed all his clothes....& left the house at around 7pm...and yah... he is still asleep....zzzzzzzzz

Had Chickyrice for dinner...really nice & cheap..heee Went home & online to check 4D results....I screamed out loud when I saw 1707 .....Mani 1707 ..we strike 4D...I screamed....Tami came running in to the room to check her betting slip... yah she bought system 1707....$1..
I bought 1707 $2 big...but, SOLD OUT......Wah lah....I nearly fainted...I screamed & cried my lungs out....

boo hoooo

我的驕傲 2 - 偶像成長漸進式

我的驕傲 2 - 偶像成長漸進式 is Mani New book...her 2nd book featuring the growing up with Twins. It will be release on 20 July 2005...& she will be having an autograph session in HK... It will be my greatest wish if one day I can attend her autograph session...meet her in person myself. I really admired her....(Smallie must be...puking now...)
In year 2001 when I get to know abt Twins & like Twins....at the same time I started to admire Mani...after reading her First book in 2004 July...I really fell in love with her courage & positive thoughts she had .......And with her "I can do it mind" make her going & thats how she climb from a sales girl at a small shop, a freelance part time model, by chance she get into Fitto Music(Ex EEG) as small clerk till what she is today...EEG 金牌經理人. Her life and struggle is not at all easy...

Mani : You are already a loser, if you said..u can't do it.

Joey Yung : 她很強，有判斷力、有精力、有衝勁，和她一起度過這六年，一同成長，感覺上大家已不再單單是同事，用人去形容可能比較貼切！在此再跟她說一聲她最熟悉的：「我要多謝Mani！」

Oh my 大長今 dvd is faulty

The dvd that Tami bought for me yesterday is faulty...so, we have to make a trip down to Poh Kim again to change a new entire set....That stupid Poh Kim...

Well, we had durians for dinner yesterday...heee Tami bought 6 durians...in the end, after eating the 3rd durians...we are already too full to move...the durians are sooo big & have soo much meat...hahhaha Tami & I full till we tummy ache..hahhHAHHA Too bad smallie & fatfat is not here.

Now our fridge have nothing but, DURIANS...hahhahahaHAHHAhahhaAHHA

xiao fat got a present today....yo hooo

yo hooo.... xiao fat got a present today...Tami actually bought the whole series of 大長今 DVD for me... heeee... I felt sooo heart ache...I dragged her out of Poh Kim... but, she said even if we dont get it today she will also come back to get it for me ..Tami said, she dont want me to stay up late to watch catch the SCV telecast..when I start work...next mth...haiz...tami...aiyo...

Tami asked me why dont I write my wishlist...imagine, I never write..she also know & buy this dvd for me... imagine I write...aiyo..
Smallie said she wants to borrow my set of dvd....ai yo..smallie u dun like wan lah..... not I dun want to lent you loh....if you really sure u got the time & you really think you like to watch then I lent u ....

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Went to Khong Meng San to visit 大姑丈....I really really thanks Tami very much...she is not a buddhist & she actually planned & brought me to temples & even to khong Meng San. I nearly backout...coz, the gates to the memorial hall was locked & in order to go up we had to walk thru the place when they burn the dead pp.....I walked & walked like smart baby like that..then I quickly turn & want to backout.....coz, I saw a lot of pics & candles of the new dead pp on the shelves... Tami told me we did nothing wrong & there are pp around here...& we are here to visit my uncle...nothing to be afraid of.. (A nun saw me U-turn & backout)...so pai sey.

Tami then hold my little hand... asked me to look straight & follow her....we made our way thru & up to the Hall...Tami...thanks for everything.... you are really my guardian angel..

VERY VERY FULL dinner....

Just came home after a very very full dinner at Shangri-La "the line" Rest. Which cost Tami $188....wow..wow....really got a shock out of my life. Shdn't have ordered the drinks...haiz...anyway, its tami's day...so..once in a while is ok.. she said....

We had many many things...the best of all is the prata hahahha I wanted a 2nd helping but, too full to fit into xiao fat's tummy anymore....my tummy was soo BIG & pain after eating that I got to walk & walk & walk....ai yo..& cant button my jeans somemore...

We took a bus back & nearly fainted while climbing the stairs....I suddenly felt soo giddy..Btw, I was listening to Tami's i-pod on our way home & tami as usual was napping in the bus....my aim is to get my tami a new i-pod when I strike 4D ....MUST be at least first or 2nd prize that kind hor...& not i bet that kind... ..Then I will buy for my Tami..coz, her's already got something wrong...

Alrite got to watch my 大長今 already...Good nite ...

Happy 34 Birthday Tami...

Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you Happy Birthday to Tami, Happy Birthday to you...... Hooray today is the long waiting Tami's Day...Xiao fat gave Tami her little presents on the dot at 12.03am on 14 July....why 12.03am.?? Coz, we are busy chasing after a cockroach at 12am...tooo busy jumping up & down. Ok... Tami found her puzzle under her guest room bed & her tee in the little box....I hope she likes the gifts....she read my blog last nite..heee
We fell asleep soon after that...coz, Tami got to go for interview this morning...

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A few phone calls woke me up this morning.... I opened my little eyes...Tami is preparing to go for her interview....b4 I can say bye...she rushed out of the house...coz, she's running late...after she left..I decided to snooze for a little while more....never expect that Tami came running home less than an hr later....knocking on the door....I jumped out of bed & ran to the door....whew....

Prepared breakfast for My Tami, I cooked MEE SUA...but, not LIVER mee sua..its Prawn mee sua. .. Wanted to add a Hard boiled egg in it... but, it turns out to be a 3/4 boiled egg....haiz.....in the end I wasted 1 egg...& ended up just cracking 1 egg into the soup....hope that Tami like my cooking...heee

We will be going for dinner at 6pm tonite... a great dinner at Shangri-La..hee HEeeeee

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Oops... forgot abt Ah Sa....Twins is coming to sg for NDP @ Yishun.....on August 9...hahhahaha We can get to see my Sa & that awful Gill again...btw, we had names for our babies hmmmm the first daughter is 卓桐 & our 2nd daughter is 卓兒...heeee..Heee Dun ask me abt surnames...coz, we havent figure that out yet..

Tami's Birthday Eve....

Tami is out shopping for her clothes & shoes for her interview tomorrow....she dont want to bring me along coz, she said Im sick. Actually Im not very sick...I just cough & have blocked nose. I wanted very much to go with her but, I think Tami wants me to rest more so that I will be fine tomorrow. We had a little talk last nite, I hope that from now on....Tami will share her thoughts with me & dont keep everything to herself anymore. I know its not easy ..coz, she had been living all alone all these years...I will give you time...Hope that Tami will try to open herself up to me.

Well, today is 13 July 2005.... Tami's Birthday Eve.... as planned I will give her the puzzle tonite at 12am..but, she is having an interview tomorrow morning, so Im really thinking if...giving tonite will be a good choice. I will see how it goes...tonite...heee heee

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Got a job offer... going down to their office to sign my appointment letter on Next Tuesday 9am...haa haaa I will make a trip to the temple one of these days..
Will give a treat to Smallie & fatfat on Conrad nite....to celebrate my new job, new life...hooray.. Hope that tomorrow, Tami's interview will go on smoothly...she is so tense up preparing for the interview...

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Dreamt of 大姑丈 and grandma. Dont really remember whats in the dream... I just remember its a house...they came over to my house & I opened the door to welcome them...I still hold onto Grandma to support her.
Anyway, I planned to pay a visit to 大姑丈 on Firday....it had been a long time since I visited him....

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Sometimes I really hope I can read your mind...

We had a very quiet steamboat dinner..it shd be fun..but, it turns out to be quiet..we are in our own world. I dont know what happened or what had I done to make her angry or pissed....what happened?? I kept asking : "Are you ok?" "What happened?" She just said "No Ah!"....

Is Communicating with me that hard?? I really hope we can talk it out... & discuss whatever bothering us. If Im angry,...I show it out...& When im happy...I also show the whole world....Is it really that difficult??

Tomorrow is her birthday eve... this week we are suppose to have fun & treasure every moment of it..we have been looking forward to this week....but, everything turns out wrong...I saw her sitting in the living staring at the "Off" TV....Am I really that impossible to share your thoughts or problems with?? Am I really so hard to live with...

...得不到,永遠都是最好的.....得到,永遠都不會珍惜....

2 days to Tami's Bornday...

Im a taking a risk here posting this entry....coz, im at tami hse...she alseep. Any moment she get up...I will be "Gotcha"... Pray that she wont check her history & find this page. Anyway, lots of updates in my life.....a great heap of my life...well, yesterday MINDEF called me. They offered me the post of Admin officer. Higher income compared to my previous jobs & better prospect tooo...Hooray..Im now waiting for their call to go down to their camp to sign the appointment letter once its ready. Tami brought me to Sushi Tei for a celebration last nite....I called smallie & laybin...of coz, their are over joy with the great news.... At last, the sun seems to be shinning again.

Another news is Tami got an interview opp from NYP...on her Birthday 14 July. I know, she is rather stress...I duno wat can I do to help ..guess, I can only stand by her side & support her every decision.

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Got up rather early this morning to go marketing with Tami... becoz, I must start to adjust my sleeping hrs back to normal ... as I will be back into the working world soon. We planned to have a steam boat dinner tonite.... we bought prawns, fishballs, yong tau foo, veg, hotdogs, mushrooms....etc...

hmmm, we invited smallie & fatfat over...but, too bad smallie tummy ache.....Take care smallie....

What a plan.....

After all the planning of how to deliver Tami's presents to her hse on 11 July Mon..while she was working....all became a waste...coz, I turn up taking a cab instead. Coz, its raining...I wasnt feeling really well...& Tami called me at 3pm..saying she will be off duty in abt 30 mins.... oh my god... 3pm.. Im still beautifully dancing at HOME....my home ...my OWN little home. All the gifts not wrap & card havent write....in the end... I have to rash a cab down in the rain...with a huge puzzle, a bag & a big paper bag.

Reached Tami's hse...in 1 piece....got to wrap up the HUGE puzzle & write the card & wrap up the present...haiz....

Luckily everything was done just at the nick of time...I still got time to laz around on the bed to watch TV...when tami comes home...heee, your presents well kept & hidden...

4 days to Tami's Birthday

We had a celebration for Tami yesterday at Partyworld. Poor me & fatfat got to run round orchard to get cake & then candles for Tami. Planned to get breadtalk cake, but...to my surprised...No small green tea cake on the shelf...I nearly screamed my head off. I called smallie & fatfat..." HOW I asked them???" Fatfat reached Taka..& we bought a cheese cake at swissbakery...Then, there's another problem... no candles...Fatfat & I got to run all round orchard to get candles....& pls I would like to announce that "TAKA Cold Storage dont sell CANDLES"...Next is Party world KTV ...They had quite a number of new cantonese songs....but, their service is rather poor...fatfat & I got to wait soo long for the room..& the place is sooo smokey. Poor us ( Smallie & I ) still got to search the Mandarin songs 1 by 1....
Smallie & fatfat gave Tami a Adidas backpack & I gave Tami a little key chain ...

Well, glad that everything went on smoothly & had dinner at sushi Tei....

Althought, we had a little fight after we reached home....but, it all ends well...

Good nite.

6 more days to Tami's Birthday

Had a wonderful shopping spree with my Tami...smallie & fatfat today. We went to suntec..bought alot of stuffs...shorts, my Toby’s vcd(hee), bra, panties, ....yah & wrapper for Tami..& smallie bought an Electronic Keyboard which cost Fatfat $399...Wow..Wow..

Tami is not feeling very well today...I don’t know, wat shd I do. She kept coughing & coughing...& looks rather tired. I really hope I can do something to help...no matter wat, I will drag her to the doc...on Sunday.

Tomorrow is Sat...09 July 2004. Tami's 34 Birthday celebration...heeee.. Well, as planned. I will go & get the green tea cake from bread talk(coz, got voucher...must save $$$...IM broke..haiz)..ok, after that meet fatfat at 1.15pm...pass her the cake so that tami wont suspect..hahaha.. We will then make our way to Partyworld KTV...dinner plan at Sushi Tei. I bought a key chain for Tami today...hmmm, don’t know when to give her....btw, I bought an Alpha Bear "L" for her..online.. It will either reach her place tomorrow or Mon...I guess..heeee. how can my "W" bear do without a "L" bear...got a hard time searching for the "L" in auction...must thank smallie for teaching me to buy things fm auction...

Bought a Piggy tee for Tami...which will give her only on 14 July 2005...for her wear to dinner that nite.. I planned to put that tee into that puzzle box...fill the box with 34 hearts...every little hearts contains a message to my tami...heeeee...Well, from afternoon 2.30pm till 4pm... only managed to fold 18 hearts....Gum ba tei....got to finish the 34 hearts tonite....
Come to think of it, I think I might really have problem bringing the Puzzle, the tee in a BIG BOX...& my bag to tami hse on Monday afternoon....the puzzle already not small...some more I still wrapped...5 layers of newspaper, 3 layers of brown paper...& duno how many layers of Wrapping paper yet...The not small puzzle...became a very huge puzzle....haiz.. really headache...but, I dun feel like taking cab...waste $$....dont think I can take bus...coz, I will be even more clumsy carrying up & down the bus....I might even roll down the bus or trip over the stairs. Train will be a better choice. Guess, I will take train to AMK then change to cab....coz, im very worried...how am I going to board & get down the bus. Another worry is, wat if Tami found her not small puzzle before 14 July 12am....at one glance everyone knows 90% its a Puzzle.


Well, hope that everything will go on smoothly tomorrow....

Long long nite

Just came home... had a rather long tiring nite. We are supposed to go for a shopping spree at IMM Daiso today...but, during dinner time..We had an argument. It’s not really very very serious in the beginning....I just asked her when is she going to extend her passport..coz, I dun wish to waste her 5 days of leaves without planning. Never expect that this little dinner tok will turn into a horrible fight. It started not becoz, she dun want to extend her passport or anything like that...it all started becoz, of a FACE. A face or gesture that pissed me off. Most important thing is after she knows im unhappy, she still remain silence....this is something I cant stand...SILENCE.. I made a move by buying her a can of green tea & a milk tea for myself...but, after that still silence.. I walked off to Daiso myself after drinking my tea...& she follows....SILENCE...still SILENCE... The more I start to boil... I cannot stand Silence like that. I said: "You Hate Me"...doesn’t really mean ..that I felt that you hate me. I just want you to know that your face really shows that you hate me. I said we are not going to make it....its becoz, I want you to do something..not to create more silence & cool expressions of yours.

At Long John Silver. It’s sweet of you to get me a drink & snacks to eat ..coz, u remember I did not really eat during dinner time. Soon, everything turn sour again...coz, I realized that you dont know me well enough. Its not the first time we had fights like that....I told you before I cannot stand silence during an argument. I cant believe my ears when you answer back: " How you know that things will be better...when I tok??" & " I duno wat will I say when Im angry...I can say even more cutting words that might hurt you more."
At that moment...I really can stand it anymore....coz, I know...if I dun walk off, I will create a scene at Long John....

I ran & walk & ran aimlessly...not knowing where & wat to do...tears started flowing like anything..I nearly wanted to smash the phone on the floor. I cant believe that someone whom loves me sooo much can hurt me like that. Especially, when I think of how I spent sleepless nite making the puzzle...& planning her bday...hurts me even more...I kick a stone(luckily Im not wearing my new shoe today)...which hurts my little toe too....at that moment, I just want to hit myself hard. I think alot of pp must be wondering...wat happened to this mad women....crying so loudly & hitting her head with her phone like that.

After some hunting game...we met. I hugged her. I know, I still love her alot...alot. If I dont, I wouldn’t be so hurt & react this way. She brought me home...but, I can’t stay overnite...coz, I spent too many nite away from home lately.. 12.30am, I had to take a cab home. I felt very very bad...kept spending her $$...but, Im really rather broke..soon. I cant go on like that...I have to start selling my stuffs to get $$...I cant possible ask her to pay for all my stuffs....although, she is paying most of it now...haiz....Im really useless.

Is it because of my thyroid that coz, me to behave like this?? Or is it becoz, Im jobless...or becoz, of wat that made me soo emotional?

My First Entry

Hello..

Thanks to smallie who encouraged me to create this blog of my own.....so, that people around me knows how im feeling. I told smallie...my English not good, & I duno much abt IT stuffs.....& I might not know wat to write?? She reminded me that im not going for an Essay competition...just writing out my thoughts & feelings for the day to let the people around me know me better. Thanks again to Smallie & Fatfat for supporting me & care for me all these while.

Well, 7 days more to go for Tami's Birthday. I started preparing for this big day a few months ago...planning wat presents to give her & how to celebrate for her...this is the first time I celebrate her Birthday with her....I want it to be special & memorable for her... but, im jobless now and without an income made my plannings even harder...I had to crack my little brains to plan something cheap & wonderful. I planned to make her a puzzle, coz...I think she likes puzzle alot & its very meaningful...coz, its the first & only puzzle I will make for my entire life. I nearly fainted, I felt giddy every nite after rushing the puzzle with sleepless nites...& it nearly crack my back bones. I bought the frame on 6 June 2005 at Bugis...got to carry the BIG frame home like a mad women in the train.....I started the puzzle on 8 June 2005...as I spent too many nites at Tami's hse.... so, my speed was going rather slow....after a week not even 1/4 done yet...On 23 June....I decided to rush up the puzzle so, I spent 2 days & 2 sleepless nites to complete the 1000 pcs puzzle on 24 June 2005. Im so, happy when its done...Its a Twins Puzzle....coz, I felt that its becoz of Twins we get to know each other...somehow, Twins brought us together.... ..I planned to give the puzzle to her on 13 July 2005 at 12am....heee...

Hope that she will like it.