Long time No blog....

Almost 3 weeks since I last blog. Rather busy preparing our little trips. 2 More days to our HK trip & soon after HK will be our KL stressful trip. 2 more days to our trip to HK... shd be a fun thing to look forward to...but, we had fights almost every night. I know, Tami is very very stress over the KL trip.... planning like a travel agent. We must take care of 18 persons...and the whole CM Board is like a useless bunch of monkeys. Alright talk about some happy stuffs...... over the past few weeks..... L Word S4 is back... Hoo hoooo How time flies, just like yesterday... I told Pilon, Hey...you must wait 1 year for the next season loh..... and now its already 2007.

Another Good news is Joey won 最受歡迎女歌星 四連霸.. yeah yeah yeah.....Frankly, it might be her last year for winning the award.

Happy New Year

Its 2007, Happy New Year.. we had our little countdown at our place... with Choya, yucks cocktail drinks & Mint baileys....simple & cool..its just spending the brand New Year with your love ones....Tami, Classmate & best frd...

We booked our HK trip.... we are GOing to disney HK again...this JANUARY...wow...wow..... Looking forward to Jan 19th.....yeah.............................. I know eveything will be wonderful in 2007.

CK TANGS

We had a luggage shopping hunt. From OG to Istean... we hunted round & round for the perfect wonderful luggage. At last we got our little luggage from CK TAngs... not only the service is good... but, because of their opening hrs til 12am ... Its festives season..the New year is round the coner...but, Taka, Istean all busy closing doors & shutting their gates at 9.30pm.... while all the crowds were still busy shopping & swaying around... Btw, it was supposed to be a great nite.. coz, Tami bought me a NICE Cute Pinky luggage.. but, everything turns sour when we came hm.. checked email & got to know that our dear frd is coming to town. This news indeed shaken Our 9 days beautiful winter trip.

Now, I'm left hanging there once again....I just simply hate this feeling. Just when I tot, at last we are booking our trip ...at last we are going to $$ changer tomorrow... NOw, once again ...i'm floating on the sea..not knowing which direction to go....yah, at least...I have a luggage floating with me NOW...

Merry Christmas

We had dinner at Kenny Roger, beer, wine, vodka, Aga Aga, Log Cakes, presents & presents, a translucent TOILET, flu, smoky room, cheese cake, welcome pack & a carmera running out of batt this christmas.

We had a late check out.. & headed for movie "DEATH NOTE2" Wow... this show.. is amazing. Not only made small & I fallen asleep...but, Fat2 too....well, fell asleep in a cinema..amazing rite..?? Actually, I have NO idea as to, what are they toking abt the whole movie.. never believe in reviews & ratings....

Wow Christmas dinner

We had a christmas dinner with the JA Gang. Had dinner at NYDC & headed to bowling & pool. Why I name this dinner as Wow christmas dinner? Coz, I ordered a Pasta which suppose to be known as the chef special as they have this WOW log at the menu..but, it turns out to be Not so wow. I can't even finish half of the plate of pasta. They ordered a Chocolate Log cake...treat from SA...how nice of her...but, I also can't eat loh... Actually I like the cheesecake... how I hope I can get a bite of the Cheesecake on the display..

So, I'm sort of alittle hungry while we are playing bowling & Pool..... but, Tami need to rush hm so we can't join them for supper.

Another super wet day..

Its another very wet rainy day.....Tami at last got 2 days leaves.. & these 2 days at last we get to go out for our christmas shopping & it rains non stop...

Regardless of the rain, we still went out to PS..to get my little fringe done. That auntie still claim that this is the in fashion now....this kind of funny fringe. Anyway, at last we had our Penang Dinner... My FAVOURITE the Ban Chang Kueh.... I name it the Ha Ha bing...

After dinner Tami ... is so Full that she feels like puking. (Now is 1.54am...Tami just made herself a glass of chinese Tea..coz, her penang stuff still can't digest)

After dinner we took a little bus to HMV to get a $15 voucher for christmas xchange...then we look around for winter jacket for tami...she said that she can't fit into the winter jacket that she wore to HK last Jan....Haha Next was MY organizer hunt again.... we went to TAKA, Kino to search again... & hold the organizer & FEEL....Luckily there are some laybins (REAL laybins..wrap presents that kind) keeping tami company.... I left Kino without buying anything loh...Next, we dropped by Shaw Istean to take alook at the luggages....hmmm, Tami likes the Elle Paris luggage...but, the sales girl is rather hopless loh.... so we didn't manage anything in the end.....LASTLY, we went to borders again. I went in..can't find the organizer that I hidden last nite...I started to panic a little.....then I realised...this is the organizer that I want ...to spend my 2007 with.......

Things are always like that, when you are abt to lose it, then you realised that this is actually what you want.

A Bad Wet Day

It was supposed to be a fun penang night. Tami was on leave. We planned to go for the once a year Penang feast. We set off at 4pm...Climb hills & mountains, at last we reached the Hotel. Guess What??? More than 400 kiasu pp are already in the queue. The queue from the Hotel cafe to the carpark. Yes, I can't blame or complain coz, I'm also 1 of the Kiasu singaporean who choose to go for my Penang feast today becoz its CHEAP. $10 cheaper fm the normal price. The only thing is....they are MORE kiasu than me. In the end, we have to roll down the mountain again....yes in the rain. We walked aimlessly duno where to go.....everywhere humans, traffic, water & umbrallas...."At this point of time, its time for BLACK FACES" Turning round in circles not knowing where to go.....
In the end, we landed in Tangs... had a quick dinner & headed for my 2007 organizer hunt. We started to talk again ...at the luggage department...Tami wanted to get a NEW luggage...we started talking again....& discuss abt the many kinds & price of luggage bags.

Next was the organizer hunt....I admit, I took SOME TIME swaying around left to right ...right to left ...up & down ...to search for the organizer...MY 2007 organizer. From Tangs, Taka to Kino, Metro, Paragon, Borders... Tami face started to change while we were at Kino.....I know, she doesn't understand, WHY we need to get such an expensive organizer....

In these 20 OVER years...I never ever own such an expensive organizer. My organizers are mostly either fm AIA, my ex companies or fm popular...$4.90. Everyone who know me well, know that I very bang tang & that I had a very terrible 2006!!! .... I wanted a NEW year....I wanted to start a good year with a NEW organizer that I like...something different from the past. I just want to make myself happy....a HAPPY 2007. Its just that simple....

We a short break at Borders Bistro. Tami know that I had a BAD WET day, so bought be a BOOK ....& we tried to be funny by asking the borders to gift wrap the book for me....(I felt that I shd wrap up that book...coz, I will only start reading next christmas) hehhahhaaa

The bad WET day ended without my organizer but,....with a very interesting bus ride. This is really a SBS bus. I got a shocked when I board the bus......I tot I was dreaming...............

HAPPY Birthday little Brother

Happy Birthday to you happy birthday to you, happy birthday to ah boy happy birthday to you......Merry 27 to my little brother.

At Last ...we managed to catch Flags Of our fathers Last Night. Like I always said...Not all Free things are good. We got to catch the 9.50pm show as Tami knocked off late...after the show is already 12.15am...in the end we got to spend $10.65 for cab. Yah, u may says at least its cheaper than 2 movie ticket.

We bought ALL the christmas gifts yesterday. Just at 1 little shop. We spent nearly 45 mins to line up for LUCKY Draw coupons & wrappers.... YES, cfm I'm a singaporean.

The Movie is not bad. Better than wat I expected. Maybe becoz, I like War shows...but, the person next to me doesn't seems to enjoy it....Nt Tami hor...I mean THAT guy on my left. The show started less than 15 mins.. he kept looking around... sit with his LEGS wide opened..(I really dun understand WHY some guys got to sit like that...) Its OK if he fell asleep..but, he snores & snort. Thats not all he stretched fm left to right....right to left....nearly hit my little nancy....I looked at him twice..& he looked away. The worst is yet to come, he not only started smsing & playing with his phone.... the most scary thing is ..he started DIGGING nose. I immediately lean towards tami....I'm so worried that he will rubbed those "stuffs" he digged on my chair OR the arm rest....or anywhere near me. At last, the show ended...lights ON.. he immediately JUMPED up... He is not an old man loh.. but, quite a young guy in his 20s...with gf. What a close encounter with BI SAI..

女儿紅

Yesterday, I made myself to ViVOcity under the little rain & they actually tell me that "OUR cinema is Closed today." I really duno what to say ...I went walking around aimlessly, cannot even find a Toilet. This is the problem when the shopping mall is too big. Now I know why classmate likes Vivocity..she can exerciser in the aircon as well as shopping. In the end, Tami brought me to the DUCK shop for dinner. The food is quite OK...but, please dun order the NU ER HONG. Yes, its the Daughter RED. Which cost us $3.70 per little cup.

TASTE like the 鐵打酒.

Maggie Mee

Shd be watching our free movie tonite. Free things are never good....we have to watched that show only fm Mon - Wed. And we have to travel all the way to the town for the movie..a bit silly...

Just had a packet of Maggie mee... Really Maggie the Mee. Coz, I want to know HOW nice is it..?? I Don't understand Why tami claim that its the best Mee on earth....& Tami told me that she can Cook the BEST Instant Mee with Maggie Mee.... !!@@

Pants on the loose...

Yesterday, was the Tung Wah charity show in HK... LIVE on TV, Yumiko's pants slipped off..exposing her panties. At first when Tami show me the clip...I laff & laff NON stop. I immediately sent to classmate...who laff like crazy too. Classmate even asked me to imagine her panties came off......HHahahha.... I know its evil... but, its really funny.

Had a rather FULL dinner with laybin, bowtie & my little Bro....its my little bro birthday dinner. I drank 4 cups of red wine, 3 cups of Dilmah tea, 1 cup of coffee & 3 bowls of soup. Hahahhahahahhah I came home...immediatlely rushed to the toilet... Ah boy gave me a key chain for christmas, & I gave me $50 to chip in for his Puma shoe. Dun understand why boys & gals born in the year of LAMB likes the brand PUMA suddenly?? Btw, my little bro had 3 pcs of beef steak, 2 chicken chop, 2 BBQ Dory fish, 1 duno wat Fish, 8 LAMB CHOP, 2 pcs of cheese cake, 5 pcs of KAYA cake, 3 cream puffs, 3 mango cakes, 3 BIG plates of sashimi, 4 bowls of soup, 2 cups of TEA, 1 Cup of Hot choco, 5 bowls of gui ling gao etc.........etc...phew

Station Master

Woke up 8am...to meet the buyer of my Watch. To my surprised, he is an uncle.. after the transcation, Tami brought me to Toa Payoh for breakfast..we had a sleepy bf & took a little bus trip to the post office.

At last, we crawl back home at around 11.30am. Took my shower & suddenly doze off...How I hope that I dun need to meet them. HOw I wished that I can join classmate & bestfrd. Anyway, I doze off for around half an hr... Jump up at 1.15pm & dragged myself to the airport to meet the 6th chin & gang.

Had quite fun playing hide & seek with Fila. Hahahhaha Hahah She was rather touched to see us there sending her off... she promised to come flying back with our gifts...hhahahah After HuggING & saying goodbye with flying KISSES. We had coffee. .. & then follow by dinner at Fish & Co.

We really had fun laffing & snapping pics at each other....the staffs at FIsh & Co.. are really impossible....we asked for placing order, & the guy told us he is NOT authorised to take order ...& he will ask the STATION MASTER to come. Next when they were serving the soup of the day, ... OUR soup went flying on to the floor...NExt, we asked for chilli sauce....."HANG on a moment, I will get the Station Master to get back to you.." We were like... HUH???? Next, we need to refill the plain water...."Sorry, I will ask our staff in charge of water to get back to you...." ....We broke into laughter. After meal, we need to clear the plates & PANS...."Hang On, I will ask my colleague incharge to get back to you...." & that clear plates & Pans lady never come loh.... until we have to ask a couple of times then we got the right staff who is in-charge of CLEARANCE.....
This is really VERY silly loh... I wonder who tot of this funny management idea....Eveything in a mess & sooo Silly.


好食好住
家肥屋潤
恭喜發財
後日開始
又要減肥

U Won

I'm so happy to receive a sms: U won a pair of movie Tickets.... yes, its only a pair of movie tickets....tami win until dun want to win anymore...but, its my first time in my entire life that I won movie tickets...& premiums. I was watching my favourite TV serial Jounery to the west, when i received the good news...yah, Its just a pair of movie tickets...& maybe some little premiums note books, pen or pencil, posters, stickers or folders...but to me, I felt that I'm not that unlucky after all...heeeeehe

Today is 05 Dec 2006...official released of We Stand As One 何韻詩演唱會 2007 in concert.

Sprain NECK

Short FAT necks also can be twisted. Lately, duno what happened to me. My neck is soo painful. Cannot turn my head.

We watched a local movie yesterday.."I', not stupid too" Hahhaha funny, Tami & I actually sitted nicely at the hall & watched the whole show. Its really nice like what laybin said....very real & touching.

Lunch Time

Its a Sunny Monday. whenever I'm alone at home on a weekday, I will always think back on how I used to spend my lunCh time with my best Colleague in my Entire Working life. How we used to have fun & Joked around..gossip, do marketing & never forget to get our daily New Paper.

At TImes I still Thought of my horrible Lunch time at NA. The life I dread at NA. So, when I got the job at MD, it was like the Best job I ever had. Like what everyone likes to say, good things never last.

19th months

Its our 19th monthsary......we watched dvd at home..sang karaoke & went out downstairs for a late dinner... a great dinner. Although its only a meal at the coffee shop down stairs...but, I like the chicken & the veg very much...

Japanese Feast

Its 01 Dec 2006... we had our 19th mth anniversary dinner at a japanese rest... Tami brought me there...and wanted to surprised me but, in the end...lost her way..Hahhahahhaa I never eat sashimi till so jalat before....we called 4 plates of salmon sashimi, 2 plates of octopus sashimi & 1 plate of wat yellow tail sashimi....this taught me a lesson..not to be too greedy in my next buffet meal. I eat until the last 2 plates of sashimi that time....wah, I nearly want to throw out ...........hahahaahah
Overall, we had a great meal lah............ after dinner, we went over to MS to catch Andy Lau's Battle of Wits.. Not bad lah the show, slightly better than wat I expected.

After the movie, its around 12am... we are surpised to catch the last bus home... it had been sometime since we had night bus rides..........quite a fun little adventure.

happy feet

Met Tami at the MRT, had a quick dinner at coffee shop and catch Happy Feet at 9.35pm. Hmmm, the show its alot much better than I expected. I prepared to slp in the cinema actually.....but, to my surprised the show is quite funny...& cute.

headache.....headache

Having a headache... Tami told me that management is also very important although its only a tiny FC. I really agree with her words.... I'm really not a good leader.

SOLD OUT

Public sales are not even out yet..but, last nite of hocc 2007 tickets are already sold out. I called the HK advance sales today to check...to my surprised, they accept oveaseas bookings... I shd have called earlier.. No more tixs left for 20th. So, I have no choice but, bought tixs for 19th....hoping that she will extend another night....

Recently, duno why sooo tired.

Went downstairs to buy dinner with Tami....then we watched dvd till Laybin called...asking how?? Any side effect after taking the med?? Hahaaaa talking abt those med.....Its so funny...I had to pour all 20 over packets of tiny powder into 1 big cup....hahhaahha and he only gave me med for 2 days loh....

Rainy day

What a wet day today. Dun understand why so tired today. Woke up not early loh, still doze off at 2.30pm....but, woke up 5.08pm to watch my favourite programe ...heeee Journey To The West. My all time favourite since I was a kid....Every Saturday afternoon, my bro, laybin & me will watch the CHINA ver. hhahahhaa without fail.

Will be going to see the doc. with laybin tomorrow....

After a drama last night, everything seems quite Ok now. We promised that we have to share & care..like care bears at all times in days..& years to come.. We are very tired with black faces..a waste of time.

I had a usual bo liao chatt with classmate, she said that we had poor memories coz, we are growing older day by day...."we can't even remember what we did last new year.." At last we remembered that we watched 'HE PING FAN DIAN" at bishan GV...we even hugged & wished each other a HaPPY New Year in the Cinema...ehheeheheee
2006 Not very happy loh...so, Please don't Count down in the cinema this year.
Classmates even told me that I shd blog happy moments and not so much of depression stories. I look back at my blog....really many are unhappy memories?? Mostly in anger & tears........

I think I must really make a change....changing of my blog template is a new page of my life...I hope that 2007 will & should be the greatest year for me....coz, 7 always brings me luck...HEhehehehhehe

25 November 2001

5 years ago, Ma Ma (Grandma) left us. I remembered around this time....12++am, I reached home no one around..I waited till nearly 4am laybin, bowtie & ah boy came home. "Where have u been?? You know Ma ma is in the hospital...very serious the doc asked everyone of us to go hospital to prepare for the worst.." Well, I was at the cinema watching Harry Potter & my mobile was OFF. I was speechless...Please I told myself, Dun let history repeats....I havent got the chance to say goodbye to 姑丈...this was one of my worst regrets in my life. Please...hang on mama. I can't sleep the whole nite..I believe NO one in the family could.

The house phone rangs...at 6++am, we are prepared for the worst. My uncle asked all of us to rush to the hospital.

Our family is among the last few who reached SGH. ALL of them were already seating at the lobby of that ward. 大姑媽, my aunties, cousins were all in tears ......
"She gone already" my uncle told us....
My laybin...started breaking down...then me.

It had been 5 years...but, whenever I thought of Mama & 大姑丈....I still feel the ache ...
I never know what is call death until they left me.

Now, thats something I will never ever do ....NEVER off my phone in the cinema. If one ph is oFF the other MUST be ON. On the other hand, I learn to treasure my every moments with my 95 ys/o 爺爺 & 大姑媽.

i would rather be alone

i would rather be alone. she just came home... & the face is like worse than charcoal....I would be alone.

hocc Live In Unity part 2 in 2007

My final chance is here. Hocc Live In Unity part 2... alot of things in life theres no take 2...but, for this...my 2nd chance is here. I'm so happy that hocc will be having her Part 2 concert in HK this coming Jan.....

Happy Birthday Charlene

A Very Happy birthday ah Sa...

Its Sa birthday, also the born day of my C watchy..heehee collected my watch with tami today. Its soo cool. The price is even more cool loh.... Actually, I wanted to sell the watch away, but.. tami said: "You don't like my gift arr??" Its not I dun like, but you know the price can buy 2 airticket to HK...

Well, I love the watch....

sparks & passion

just had a chat with Mic via msn. she I told her, I'm very sian. Kids, haiz...they won't understand a 30 y/o auntie tots. but, she is mature for her age. She suggested that I add some sparks into my r/s. She even suggested that we go for a trip just the 2 of us... Its not that easy.

Now, I dun even know her schedule for the week. Please dun ask me wat time she off work everyday...coz, I duno. I asked for it...so, that I can plan. days after days...weeks aft weeks. Now, i'm too tire to ask. We are like living in 2 different worlds.

You like football, sports....I watch with you. I blended into your life...although, i dislike it so much...coz, reminds me of bowtie. How to tacker the problem, thanks to singapore pools....if I bet for that match I dun mind watching..even if its only a $5 bet.

This shd be the worst christmas, new year I ever had. I never like christmas, but this is the worst ever.

jobless

This is the most unforgetable festive season. Yah, jobless festive season. Did I made the wrong choice by rejecting that job fm DF?

Can't sleep...will be meeting J & that 6th chin for dinner tomorrow. Sian must her face...but, tami told me that I must do some PR with them..
Entertain them, I would rather entertain myself....




I hope that one day you will learn to enjoy what I like too....

..................

u understand wat is call in a r/s. You dun even need a r/s. basically you just want to be with yourself. You dun & never see the problem between us. coz, you dun even care. enough is enough.

You said that you want to help me .... u asked me to see doc.. well, I shd already thank u if you dun say things or do funny actions to hurt me.

Happy Hour

Had snacks & drinks with my classmate & best frd. Surprised that classmate actually ordered 4 bottles of beer....but, i'm not really surprised that she pushed everything to me after afew slip loh. We chat & planned for christmas....long time since we chat like that....haiz..life sucks

btw, these are the pics I promised my Bestfrd. Your sammi & my hocc...Wahahahah

SIAN

xian xian xian

Very very SIAN

please dun get marry or stay together with your partner...coz, from love will became sian ...then soon the END. they wouldnt treasure you anymore...coz, you are useless & see you also sian....yes, getting sick ...very sick of u...that's life.

Motorola A1200

My new Dream Phone of the year ......

maryb

Who is Maryb......hahahahh a name I always think is funny...MARYSUSAN LAI...is my laybin nick name...hahahha

Nothing better to do... I start surfing blogs of 93.3 DJs....yah a bit too bo liao...

Then, I found something very funny...that makes maryb my new idol..hahahha I dont mean that pic with that funny guy in white....its the eating flower pic..... FUNNY..hahhaha

Entertain myself....

Tomorrow is Sat. I actually planned to watched Movie. Luckily I did not buy ticket...like b4...We came home, I packed my stuffs....you watch your TV....within an hr.... you are asleep. What a Great Friday NIGHT.

I entertain myself surfing the net....and will be moving to the hall to watch TV... after this....sian. Does it makes a difference if you are at home with me or not....NO.

No matter is day or nite....I'm always alone.. guess you are just getting sick of me.

Alliance

Joey came & go....the GCMA thingy came to an end. A couple of hippcus here & there...everything ends rather well. We sort of patch things up with Paul. Left a rather good impression of JAS to Ada, Sandy & of coz, Joey. Make alliance with Yanzi FC. To my surprised, we even get in contact with Malaysia FC & HK FC. HK FC contacted me yesterday....we chat for a while & exchanged news & tots....

1 Of my biggest regrets is missed hocc concert. How I envy Paul when she mentioned that she just came back fm hocc concert. As quite a fan of hocc, I have been looking forward to this concert of hers....I'm even more upset, when I read hocc blog....seeing all the fun & how great the concert is...the beautiful caps, tee shirt, ph strap & lan yard on sale.....I quickly went to search the auction to see if anyone selling the stuffs.....Yah, they did....but, marked like double, triple of the actual price...things would be sooo different & so great if im there. Well, I always believe that if I got something I must release something.



Now, what most important is to get a job & make our Jan Trip possible.

mess

my life is in a mess. hopless, useless, worthless

HAZY

I'm feeling like the weather today. Hazy...very hazy & unhappy. VERY VERY unhappy. I felt hopeless, useless, sad & lonely. NO meaning of life.

Is already OCT

Is already OCt...and yah ..Im still searching. Went home today...felt really strange. My room, laybin, bowtie....everything seems different. Guess, I dun feel home anymore. Laybin told me that, Pei is getting married this mth....haiz. I know she hopes that I will go...but, I dun feel like entertaining them...Pei is 5 years younger than me....imagine...all those UNCLE, AUNTIES, cousins...whom u havent met since 5-6 years ago.. kept bugging u....WHY u havent married arr....got BF or not.... where u work arr>>>>??? WHY U SOO FAT ??? WHY u this arr...why u that arr???WAH...I can imagine that kind of stress.....sian...sOOOOO sian..

Btw, I tot of changing the Tingkat....hmmmmmm still thinking..

Ups & downs

Tami told me that we must learn to treasure what we have. After reading D blog.... tami felt that we must learn to fight lesser and learn to love & treasure each other even more than b4. Our r/s is full of ups & downs....I tried very hard to in put in our r/s...but, we are still clashing......."When one doesn't give in anymore ..that's it." If being in a r/s is soooooo tiring....when gets involve in the first place??????????

hocc

Wanted very much to see hocc concert. ...but, its not possible. If, I have the $$$ may as well fly for chob shows. Ah C concert..is really a long waiting event to all her fans. Glad that the tixs are selling like hotcakes & wish them a happy & fun trip in Nippon......

Nice Egg

Tami is not well....so, I have to finish the dinner by myself....I did not really touch the Fish.... and the veg is ...fine...Egg is the best...Maybe its becoz, I just love eggy.

Blended curry Veg....

Fish, chicken, soup & rice is great ...but, the curry Veg is abit tooooo blend & watery......

We did not go IKEA afterall...coz, its raining so we catch "THE HOST"....its nice. What really touched us is their family bond ... & the trust they had for each other...they went all out to save the little girl....soooo touching.

JAS website is finally up. We are also paying deposit for the tee tomorrow.....

願我可以學會放低你

Came across her blog...or would rather say, went to search wat she wrote in her blog. Dated, July 14 2006. A drop of tear nearly flow down my cheek. Tami quoted as a modern fairytale Love story.... its sooo touching.

任我出去任我飛
遊蕩兩日又重踏這地
沒有牽掛就會死
難道我靈魂被你收起

自己都管不了自己
太多錯誤經已因你起
我都知　再找你
連幸福都要放棄

其實你有多好　到別處碰不到
至令我重返這條路
臨近晚節不保　卻行到這一步
難道天空海闊再無芳草

＊願我可以學會放低你
　就讓我重頭來過物色新知已
　望著你的臉如山水一般優美
　要走的我　總企在原地

　願我可以絕到踢走你
　但是我如何能拒絕張開的臂
　自問我可以贏你　但喜歡輸給你
　猶像你親於我自己
　我怎可以　一刀切下來　親手　傷你＊

其實你有多好　到別處碰不到
美麗到危險的程度
臨近晚節不保　卻行到這一步
沿路的山丘已化成焦土

live to love, love to learn

其實我們是相似的。
我們都渴望愛，但其實我們天生都不太懂得怎樣去愛。
我們的佔有慾，讓我們把一切都攪錯了。

我們普遍會認為，
愛是擁有，
我愛你，所以我要和你在一起,
那，如果你愛我，你也理應跟我在一起。
不能有任何其他歪念，不能想著其他人，
偶然覺得有危機，或是失去了，自己就心慌了
接下來，我們就會用一切方法得到或是留住對方的心。
有些人會對你好，為你做盡所有事，把一切都奉上為對方犧牲，
覺得這樣就是我愛你最好的方法，
但身在當中，就不能發現到，原來不停一相情願的給給給給給，
反而會把一切都拉到最緊。
若有勇氣，能夠退後一步，有了適當的距離，會發現我們這樣反而更能學會怎樣好好地愛對方。
人越大，就發現原來能夠給對方適當的空間，才算真正的愛。
真正的愛應該會令人成長，令自己看到自己有什麼問題。


人生, 本來就充滿著離離合合，
但我是這樣認為的，
暫時的離開，其實並不一定代表著永遠失去，
若你擁有的那份是真愛的話，不會因為對方不在身邊了而被影響，
也不會因為環境被改變而磨滅。
是的，我們所有的，一切都有可能被拿掉，
唯獨是心中那份愛，沒人任何人可以把它搶走，
因為它會永遠地安穩地被保存在心中。

Long bean, ku gua & Fish

The dinner tonite is great. Tami loves the fish...& I love the long bean + Ku gua chicken.... yum yum

Basket search...

Met Tami and AMK central & started our basket search...A basket for our tingkat delivery when we are not around. hmmmm actually I feel rather funny...imagine a BIG basket hanging outside your door..hahahhaaa wonder if that delivery auntie will laff... tots of that sharp blue big basket at my door I feel like laffing...HAHAHhhahahha

Well, dinner seems better today. Soup is nice. Veg is fine, hotdog is tasty(of coz...its always tasty to me) & the Ma you Chicken is not too bad. Maybe i like & used to more salty food, so...I still feel their dishes rather blend.
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We will be going to Reflection Printing Factory tomorrow....if everything goes fine "I hope" we will drop the stupid Stitch Print Shop. Nowadays these kind of sevice attitude cannot make it loh.....

Tingkat

Today is the first day of Tingkat service. After searching for days...we decided to this Hong Choo service. hmmmm, the food is well....we are giving it another chance. Heng we are not those yim qim type...the Veg is a bit raw...Fish not much taste, Chicken curry tami comment that the chicken is abit tough. The best among all is the rice ...hahahahha the rice that tami cook...heheeeeeee oops missed out soup..the soup shd be the best among all their dishes....hope that tomorrow will be better...

New pump for my fishy

Bought a new electrical pump for my little fishy... after the death of my little Gill...now is let with my beloved Sa & chob... a person suay means suay....fish name after her name also will die without reason...opps..

Got to slp early today...meeting fat for rebonding tomorrow....yoyoyo.

hocc Live in unity

What a rainy day

Tami is off today. So, we went to the HDB hub to check out abt her house....had kopi at Ya kun & headed down to beach road to get the JAS tee done...yes..our 3rd trip. To my horror & later became anger.....that man actually told us that he SOLD 500 pics of the LEMON Yellow tee....so, no more stock for us....Im really speechless..the anger is rising in me by secs....wat is this..???<>@^&*$*&

We left the place & we walked in the rain to the bus stop..really a BIG WALK loh.... a BIG circle to the bus stop which is supposed to be right infront of us. Wat is this?? I really dun believe that this is the ONLY tee printing shop in sg.

W850 OR Z610

I can't decide which phone to target for....the W850 or the Z610. I had always planned to aim for my new dream phone of 2007...the Pearl White Sony Ericsson W850i but, a week ago SE announced their latest to be launch in 3Q of 2006 the Z610...its sooo beautiful...Especially the one in PINK... soo pretty.

Mani、偶像回到校園時

Yoyoyo...... ladies guess wat I found??? Pipi please dun scream....YES..YES.. its Mani latest released...she released another book this year & I dont even know...

Shocking news

Received a shocking phone call that Chob is not coming to sg for the Awards. Yes, its a relieve... we dun need to rush the lite boards & trouble over how spp bring the boards over ...blah blah blah.........but, the most terrible thing is...the TICS. 10 tics all roll down to the drain now. I really duno wat to do. It cozt $1000. Its $1000.

The server is also driving me crazy. So, we decided to change server. Hope that everything will be up again by 72 hrs. Coz, Pi needs to fine tune everything this Sat. Hope that both the forum & website will be up as planned by 2nd week of September.

Honey Choya

My favourite drink of the year.... Choya....but, I still prefer the normal Choya

Just bought tixs online to watch duno wat Snake in plane with tami tonite..heeee ....

A little Pet

See this little thing....soo cute. I hope to get a little pet....but, im scared. I duno if I dare to even touch it.

Nice Dinner

Tami brought me to this great & wonderful dinner...

Depression

Have been sometime since I last update my blog. Basically im busy with nothing...but, trying to make myself happier.
Everything seems to be a mess since I lost my job. I can't sleep at nite. I kept to myself...I cried to myself almost everyday. I felt very lonely & useless. We fight almost everynite & in the end, I broke down crying. I haven't stepped out of the house for almost a week. I just dun wish to meet people. Coz, I hate myself. We had a good talk. Tami told me that she feels im under depression. ...

I had a short chat with the counselllor and they told me that I'm down with psychological illness & that they would advise me to see the psychiatrist. Can u believe these?? Me see a psychiatrist??? This is impossible. I know that that's something wrong with me...but, I dun think I need to see the psychiatrist yet........

Anyway, nowadays tami brought me out for dinner everyday..she says that it will help rather than staring at the 4 walls every day & nite. We had dinner & short walks around central....marketing at NTUC. Things seems to be getting better. .....

Stay focus on positive statements about yourself.. this is wat I was told by the counselllor.

Choya Plum Wine with Ume Fruit

A premium, special wine, with pickled plums within the bottle and a taste to die for.
Plum Honey Wine With Natural Flavor and Whole Plums Added.
My new Love..wine...

I long to try the Honey sweet Flavour Choya which I bought fm DFS on our trip home fm Germany....but, I will wait till day for a celebration....heeeee

Juicy lemon

Tami told me that she wants to bring me to HK in September...to watch Juicy Lemon...of coz, I would like to...who wouldnt? But, I know that we shdnt spend soo much.

Spp is in taiwan now...she called me yesterday, saying I shd have joined her in TW....

Placebo Cure

Surprised...I watched "Placebo Cure" abt a year ago...
Alot of ???? in my head ..coz, I dun really understand if Carman & Fung are a couple...& after a year the truth is finally out. The dics I watched are rent fm the shops & that were all censored by the SCB. All bits & pieces on Carman & Fung relationship are all cut off. Thats why I dun understand the full whole story....when Tami show me the full ver... I got a shock...that I missed out so many scenes of Cherie...


This is one of my favourite scene, When Carman's laybin finally accept Carman & Fung relationship.

Imagine you & me

Imagine me and you, I do
I think about you day and night, it's only right
To think about the girl you love and hold her tight
So happy together

If I should call you up, invest a dime
And you say you belong to me and ease my mind
Imagine how the world could be, so very fine
So happy together

I can't see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue
For all my life

Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice, it has to be
The only one for me is you, and you for me
So happy together

Chihuahua

How times flies...in a blink of eyes...tami is coming back soon....maybe in 5-10 mins time. I told tami that I would like to have a NO FUR puppy...yes..a forever puppy that will never grow up.. then I tot of a Chihuahua...but, smallfatz & tami says that a chihuahua is the very ugly...the ugliest dog in the world...I duno...I find it very cute leh....maybe I have not seen the real one yet...

Last Sunday, I bought 3 little fishes...I named them, JO, Gill & Sa....heheeheeee I fatz fatz also bought 2 VERY little fishy...she loves them very much..hheeee

I will be going shopping with Tami later....we are getting a TV....a 32 inch samsung LCD...Tami said its for me to watch Joey's concert & play XBOX....hmmm....

Tomorrow is August 9....national day... smallfatz are coming over to rush the website....small said that we are very behind time.....

Home alone...

Tami just called. She had board the plane to KL. She seems soooo happy & overjoy to go home to her Homeland. Im not really alone now..as Pilon & fat came over for the nite to keep me company.... THanks smallfatz..muahkie

Cappy weekend

Tami bought me 2 UMD. I dun have a PSP...its quite silly looking at the all still nicely wrapped up UMD & cannot play with it. Its even more sillly to buy a PSP...coz, we already have an XBOX 360. Haiz....

Got a no. of Interviews offers....looks like I still got to continue searching for sometime. I know alot of them think im useless....some of the frds, I dun even want to contact anymore (at least for the time being)...everytime she saw me online, the first thing she asked is " YOU GOT A JOB?" "You still jobless??" "When are u getting a job??"
Im sure, there are alot more other things that a good frd can chat abt rite?? LIke How are you now?? blah blah blah.... Must you always start a conversation with all that crap??

Tami is going bk to Malaysia to visit her Bowtie...although, she says that.."I can dun go back..its ok." but, b4 I even reply or say anything else...she already booked the airticket to fly back this SAT. DO I ever have a say in anything???

02 August 2006

Its 02 August....well, our 15 mths.

We had dinner at Din Tai Fung....

01 August 2006

Today is 01 August..again. A year ago today, I started work at an organization which I tot would be my ...forever career, a job which would last me for years...many many years. When I got this job.. not only me, my whole family is so proud & overjoy...celebrate for mths & treated me soooo well ...coz, I gave them whatever they wan...$$ & face. My ex boss is rather "Hum Sup" & irrating at times...calling me on weekends & bothering me on my off days..like to chat & talk rubbish to me...but, he really tot me alot of things. and becoz, of him I moved on rather fast..."High Flyer" thats wat he taught me. I remembered he told me " 5 years fm now ..you will be seeing yourself sitting at my position...working here dun need to work hard at all....u must work smart." He taught me alot of things & gave me alot of chances working with our bosses...which gave me chances to move on & up. I dun depend only on my manager I also work rather hard...in projects & attending courses. Soon, I was sort of the head of our section. With my qualification, this is really like a dream to me. My manager told me to upgrade or else I cant move on further....so, he sign me up for quite a no. of different courses...

After moving to my new work station ...colleagues started to boycott me. I was the youngest babies there..I joined less than 8 mths & of course youngest at age too...& they have to report to me??? I know they hate me... but, I dun care & continues to move on...so wat if they spike my coffee...I can make another cup...so wat if they throw sweets behind my cabinets which attract lots of ants..the cleaning auntie clean & spray my cubicle for me..."This cleaning auntie also knows how to follow the wind...wat I call a lalang....she used to carry "K" coz, she tot he is or will be the head of our section...but, when I shifted my office...& my manager told them that I will be an acting head of our section till I cfm in 2 mths time.....this auntie clean my office sooo well... " this is life I guess.

2 mths..well, less than 2 mths. I lost everything.

JAS is alive again....

After a year.. JAS is back again. That day when JAS was gone overnite.... I told them....JAS will be back.

Thanks to SMALLFATZ... without them we wouldn't be able to come his far. Many thanks... muahkie

Spp told me that she placed order for the lite boards....and shd be coming over in OCT. Tickets for the 6th Global Chinese Music Awards up for sale today...and we managed to secure 10 seats for JAS. We are all ready for the 6th Global Chinese Music Awards.

our little phones

Sakae @ Marina

Movie with smallFatz"The Lake House" & had Dinner at Sakae...

W850i

Found a cool dream phone of year 2006 in the net.....Sony Ericsson W850i.
After surfing for Themes last nite, I agreed with Tami.. still sony ericsson is best for me....Im that kind who get sick of a theme or wall paper very soon now & then....so, Sony Ericsson had rather wide range of nice themes.....hmmmm well, thats my target of Dream phone this year... heheheeeeeee

Btw, I bought Tami a new phone last Wed...W810i...I think it really suits her very much....

BTW, I had a tok with Tami this morning... a good tok at 4.30am this morning... She said that she will work something out....well, rite now most important is get a job...& move back hm. I dun want her sister suddenly appear at the door or call up saying that she will be coming in a weeks time...& I have no where to go. I got to think for myself....re-plan my story again..


We will be catching "The Lakehouse" with dear fat & small.....this weekend..

容祖兒 - 用一千雙手臂擁抱你 MV

Enjoy.....

The worst is yet to come....

Things seems to be going downhill in my life. Went home yesterday, laybin told me that she needs $$$(yah again as usual) I havent been giving her $$$ since Im jobless ... she told me directly that she needs $$$ to pay bills.. I stay for the nite...its no longer the room or home that I used to love staying in. I felt like a stranger. I woke up early went marketing in NTUC & headed back to Tami's home...prepared a nice dinner..& trying to surprise her. This is the home... my home ..I felt I'm home.

After dinner, Tami told me that her sister is coming to singapore to work...which means I have to go. I just lied to my laybin that I got a job(coz, I dun want her to worry)at Changi so.. its too far fm home...I got to move to my frd's place...she buy my story...everything going on fine...till, Tami told me that "Her sister coming over to sg...TO WORK" Do you understand what I meant???
I kept telling myself, its ok that you lost that job...you stilll have this home..u still have Tami!!!! Now, everything have changed..the wind is blowing in the other direction...

My whole life is in a mess rite now. I lost my job. The best job I will ever find...becoz of WHAT??? I hate myself...hate my life...

From the moment she told me her sister is coming to sg to work...& that she have no choice..... I know what lies infront of me...and where I stand. I can only depend on myself now... to think of a brand new story.. another lie to laybin ...to move bk home....

Why are all these happening to me?? What have I done???

Nothing is forever...I can only depend on myself.....

Bad News

I think this could be the one of most terrible news of year 2006.....

Tami sister coming over to work in Singapore. ........ I can see the road infront of us....problems....quarrels...arguments

Little One's Curry...

Havent really step into the kitchen & cook my tasty curry...Other than her & a few of my old frd.... of coz, including Laybin & bowtie.....no else had tried my curry b4.....heeee hehheeehe

Today, I decided to surprise Tami..with my little one curry....hahhahah

Recently, I felt that Tami is not very happy.....duno why she kept pulling a grey face at me..... I felt that...I had treat her rather well now compared to the past...but, ................maybe becoz, im jobless???

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Saw a pic of Her & My Sa....dun really feel good.

My big project.....

Well, fatfat asked...why didnt i update my blog ..hahhaha Well, Im busy with a big project. My classmate & best frd agreed to help me in JAS website....the main thing is not becoz.... its cheaper...its becoz, they are someone closest to me. People I can trust. At least I can trust that JAS website will not be closed overnite..unless I want it to be.


Tami told me " You know..."Pilon" is a busy person... and rather impatient...once she agreed to help & wants u to source for something... u must try to be fast & do your best..." I duno if Pilon's batteries will run out soon....coz, no matter wat... I know they are not into these kind of stuff...but, no matter how far we can go..thanks for everything..my dear frds.....

If you Dont Spread out your wings, you wouldnt know how high you can fly....

ZOOy day...

Last Mon...I woke up at 5am to go to the Airport....today I woke up 6am.....to go to the ZOO.... Yah, will be meeting Fatfat & Pilon for a little ZOO trip later..It had been year.... 20 over years since I last visited the ZOO ...& to my horror, it cost $15 now. The last time I went there ..I tot it was FREE. Then I realized that was during my Primary 3 days....

Joey @ Singapore

45 mins chat with Joey....

17 July 2006. This year...I did not strike any 4d on this day like the past 2 years...but, today is another unforgettable day for me.

16 July 11.40am - We reached Singapore Changi Airport...Met up with a few other JAS other members and headed towards gate 22. Alec Su fans are already chopping their territories....we managed to chop a little coner by the glass panel.

12.05 pm - CX 717 landed ....

12.35 pm - Joey with her sun glasses and cool jacket...appeared by the gate 22 stairs... tiny screams was heard all over around us....tami lite up the JOEY lite board...she wave at us from the belt......we waited for more than an hour for her to come out...coz, her assistant's luggage was held up in HK. She waited restlessly for an hour.

1.45pm - Joey stepped out.....she took a pic with JAS and we passed her the card. We wave bye to her...and off she went off with Alec in the same coach.

2.30 pm - We had our lunch and made our way to the Padang.

3.35pm - She had rehearsals...yes..in the terrible hot sun...we got to climb the barricades to just catch an eye of her hair. 4pm we decided to retreat back to the aircon area.... we bump into the TAS pp... (Tami had told and reminded me to open my heart to see things from a different view. To forgive and forget. of coz, the person who clashes does not involve the others in TAS.) So.... yah I agreed when TAS wanted to join us to cheer Joey together at Pandang....

6pm - We made our way back to Padang....due to the terrible crowd, we lost each other at the Padang. The crowd are mostly those pp from that "COUNTRY" soo rude and like hooligans...we squeezed our way thru those sweaty man....wah...

8pm - ......%^$#@*& we were nearly breaking down.....all kinds of words coming out of our mouth... ..we lost Fila and OP. The crowd is so terrible that the show got to stop midway and there are pp fainted...pushing screaming shouting.....Im nearly going out of breath too...

9pm - The show SUCKS....If its not becoz of Joey, u pay me I also will not attend. Im losing my temper...but, whenever I look and tami...I cool off again...and soften. Tami is carrying a Big bag, holding a huge bottle of water (yah water for me) and 2 big lite boards....sweating and still not a word of complaint from her..instead, she kept asking me to drink more water and kept asking if im ok>>??? and if I could still see the screen.?? Im really very very touched.

10.45pm - At last, Joey appeared...we held up our lite boards...high up.....actually not we..its they who held the boards...coz, im not doing anything....(I'm too short) She sang a song....really ONE SONG only loh....then we squeezed out of the padang.....everyone is in a high mood.....coz, its over...we waited hours...at last its over.

11.30pm - We reached home. Tami bought my Lunch, dinner cum supper for me...coz its my first meal of the day.

2.30am - We tried to get some sleep aft a long day.

17 July 2006

5.00am - We dragged ourselves up....tami's coffee is ready for me...(how lovely)

6.00am - We reached Singapore Changi Airport.... met Fila and her hubby..(I didnt know she's married)...oops... met up with Round and bump into TAS fellows again...

7.15am - Joey reached the Airport. Im the first who greeted her...and gave her the group pic we took yesterday. "So, you are Wing?? And that name card was yours?" she asked... Yah. I replied and hand the Green cakes to her..We chat..from JAS to her blog..to her jobs ..next trip her...blah blah blah....everyone of us took a pic with her....she is sooo sweet.

Tami told her that she got to go off..coz, rushing for work..."oh..OK...wat u work as?? she asked??" "Nurse" tami repiled...

"Wow...Ok... dun be late for work.." Joey wave good bye to tami....

we continue to chat for another 30 mins ...I gave her a donald....and took pics of her..again...she asked why im soo close with spp as we are in 2 different countries..hahhahah

8.05am - Its time for her to go. We bid farewell to her....and she left for Guang Zhou....to continue...working...working and working....

Happy Birthday Mani

Happy 34th Birthday to Mani......

Its Mani birthday.....Im tooo tired at this moment..havent slept for years...got to go and nap nap...

Good nite Chob

World Cup Final 2006

Its the Final Italy vs France. Of coz, I will go all out for France. Im still recovering fm the beaten of Germany. The score now is 1-1 at 79 min. Yah... its getting a bit bored..with no scoring...and Tami is fast asleep. Goal France...Goal Goal Goal.....

Well we celebrated Tami's 35th birthday today.... I bought her an ipod.....wow.....which cost me a bomb.....whew..I wonder if she likes it????
I went to Funan IT mall all by myself...without a voice...yah....I lost my VOICE....the salesman..might think.."WAT IS THIS WOMEN UP TO??" After some condsideration....I decided to get the 30GB ipod.. Coz, the more I tot of the look of tami eating her bready in Hamburg...with a kelian look...(coz...im throwing my temper again).....the more I feel..soft..and decided to make her happy....

We had dinner at Coca. Really had a rather great time...thanks for all the gifts...& hope u gals enjoy the dinner....

Its 88.02 min now & still 1-1.....hang on there..France.....

女人唔易做

Watching the Drama La Femme Desperado...abt women of today..career women and how women work with success without men. Its funny... we laff and laff..most important is we like the 2 actress in the show.

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Frds are someone who cares and understand you. What kind of friends are you to call and asked why am I rotting at hm?? This is not what I want. Do I have a choice?

Dejection

We were on the plane from Hamburg back to Dubai... while England vs Portugal. We held our hands together awaiting the update score for the match. It was disappointing....England was out. I know tami is rather upset and disappointed. Those who had watched matches with us before shd know how much tami loves England & English teams.... I am also rather disappointed .....

We reached Dubai International Airport...we ran to the big screen which live telecast the match Brazil vs France. Another shocking result....0-1. Brazil was out. We are not really great fans of Brazil...but, this was really unexpected....the ball is really round.

The worst is yet to come... my only favourite team left....Germany was out too....just this morning..beaten by Italy at the very last min......I hope that France or well..portugal will beat them like pan cakes..in the finals

Im Home

Im Back from Germany. Came back to sg on 2nd July...spent 2 days in bed. Down with flu, fever and jetlag. Still havent got over the German's defeat this morning. Germany actually lost to Italy.. I was shocked and stood that motionlessly for a min or 2.....this is impossible. I hate the Italians....again & again they smash my hopes into pieces...

Well....enough of the Italians....may the France beat them..like meat balls...

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Hamburg..is a nice place. When I was there?? I missed home alot...I misses the food here and of coz..my home and my pang pang very very much. What I worried and dislike most is the plane...the long travelling hrs in the plane is wat I dread most. The language is also another big big problem. Everything is in germans...including the train station...and airport. Its not easy to communicate with them...luckily its the world cup season...so quite a no. of the sales & tourist spot.. and speak simple English. Its also not easy to find a normal mineral water there in hamburg....all their water are carbonated. I screamed my head out when I saw the Evian water on sale at one of the tiny shops at the train stations..